Baby, baby, when we first met
i've never felt something so strong
you were like my lover and my bestfriend
all wrapped in one, with a ribbon on it

boomboomboomboom, idwyimr

DONT TOUCH MY PIANO.
DONT TOUCH MY PIANO.
DONT TOUCH MY PIANO.


it's ludicrious how all the elder sons(my cousins) in the kow family are staying put at my place.
my mum calls it the mafia leaders gathering.
they had to come on the day before my last paper.

i've locked myself in my tiny cosy room for the entire day(+the whole morn because i slept it away. locked too, right?)
it's very boring and
the more i face my room
the more i want to renovate my room.
i want pictures there, there and there.


i want you here, here and here.

it's plain terrifying how one can conjure something that immediate; adequate realism,rendered with concrete details.

Never lie to me.

Got a jagged gorgeous winter from a summers thread.

anyway it's two more days to freedom. FREEDOM. FWRRREEDUMM

i cant wait to see how ableh and mark would be like when they hang out sometime.
it'll be a spectacle.

and i cant believe it i can survive rb's guitar on hard mode and drums too. i think i kinda love the woody family smell in alina's house now. i love the feeling of being there indulging in the slackiest kinda mood ever with nisnis fwens.

btw, m&m earrings ftw.
how i wish i can just pop them in but i know sj will strangle me.

to my daughter: thankqueforthexmaskard. HEHEHE

oh yes my daughter's post on twilight is awesome. how she downplays twilight is fking AWESOME. AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME
like what chang horng says if i can write a tad of what she writes thr, i'll (okay i wont, nt really) jump down the building. heh.
http://www.eatandsink.blogspot.com

for anyone's convenience i shall copy it here:

"What would you define as literature?

Basically, it's too complex to identify literature by the literary value of works. It'd probably take a long analysis, so let's just stick with the basic identification of literature as serving a purpose, a beneficial purpose at that.

While I'm a Harry Potter fan, I do not declare myself a pure Twilight hater, no.

However, I do have reservations about the novel and its subsequent episodes.

While I concede that Twilight has a whole lot of romance and fantasy that engages its readers, it doesn't go any deeper than that. What goes deeper than Edward and Bella's [if those are their names] undying love for each other, and the sacrifices they make? I'm basing my contextual reference mainly from the skeletal plot of the movie, so I don't steer off in the wrong direction. Let me put it this way, to quote aptly from a contributor, "Twilight is just like Harry Potter and Ginny Weasley revolving about their love and passion throughout all seven books of the series." I definitely agree with that, because that's probably as deep as Twilight can go. Stephanie/Stephenie Mayer/Meyer[however you spell it] is trying too hard to turn this into another saga that will reign the world of fiction. The theme of romance, sadly, is observed as a pivotal point of attraction mainly for young girls. Of course, I do not deny that both sexes are mesmerized by the novel, possibly readers of all ages, but it ultimately revolves around girls swooning over Edward Cullen aka Robert Pattinson. Let's be realistic, in which of fantasy novels that have been written throughout the decades, portrayed a vampire as a sparkling gem in sunlight? Sure, it removes all negative connotations and buffers the image of a vampire, but it doesn't prove realistic. The very cliched idea of vampires being bloodthirsty hounds is what keeps myths and legends going; the very horrifying element of their beastly nature keeps the suspense alive in all believers. The distortion of such an image could wind up distorting the social view of vampires. What happens when children start to think that being, knowing, meeting, or any form of contact or communication with a vampire is fine? Folklores and legends would then cease to serve their job of steering the morality of the young, because the object of educating them is painted to be positively desirable, which brings me to my next point. I personally do not wish to compare this directly to Harry Potter, because I don't see a need to. The media has definitely hyped the fans of both Twilight and Harry Potter by openly drawing parallels between the two, which is pretty much ridiculous. I daresay Harry Potter was meant to target a young audience, but it somehow captured the attention of people of all ages, but because of the exquisitely weaved plot and the thoughtful use of literary devices in the series throughout all seven novels, it deserves to be called a piece of literature to some extent, even if one may wish to consider it juvenile literature. Subjectively, Twilight comprises mostly of descriptive writing, how Bella fell in love with Edward, how Edward protects her, how she gives birth to demon-children. Mindless imbeciles who are active, hardcore Twilight fans may argue by saying things like "you're jealous that you can't find a relationship like theirs" or perhaps "you have no one to care for you like Jacob does for Bella, get over it." I've seen these tags on forums, and let me just say, it is plain stupid. Firstly, if you really perceive that kind of relationship to actually last in reality, go ahead, but don't say we didn't warn you. Secondly, you're just so engrossed in the novels that you fail to see the true differences in the two sagas, and hence wind up comparing like everyone else, and speaking only for Twilight, not from an objective view. Frankly, my stand lies with the notion that both novels serve their own purpose, I'm just more of a Harry Potter fan than Twilight. Here's a gentle reminder: Fairytales do not exist. They are created for your entertainment. The same way which Harry Potter remains fictional, Twilight will too. So quit paying patronage and self-absorbing shrines to the stars of the movie, because they are fictional in the characters they play too. On a side note, it is debatable that part of the fanbase arose from the dashing adonis Robert Pattinson along with charismatic Kristen Stewart. Oh sure, there's definitely no problem in that, but like I mentioned, I'm discussing the two sagas here in terms of the writing itself, so I won't explain on this further.

This paragraph is key because I'm weighing the implications of the two novels. I'm going to begin drawing some comparison, because it will reflect why I prefer Harry Potter over Twilight. Firstly, Twilight may be fascinating due to unfamiliar elements being introduced. The acts of tearing one apart, barbarianism and sadistic acts are being observed in which the way fans react to opinions of others. It may come across as shocking, but did you know that people who are not avid fans of Twilight are being beaten and trashed around because they do not support Twilight? Yes, read this, and digest this fact. We haven't seen anti-Twilight fans beat Twilight followers until it has to come to a situation where a forum is conducted specially for this issue. Unfortunately, things are not mutual. I refer to The Twihard Attack Directory, [please click on link to view attacks]. Brutal, and not to mention heartless cruelty, in response to anti-Twilight fans. Who is to argue that these "protectors" are defending anything else when they are clearly invading non-Twilight supporters on all levels of life? Of course, I offer the benefit of doubt that this was definitely unintentional, thus I will not continue harping on this topic.

Let me move on to how Twilight fans are divided amongst themselves. While followers and avid readers of a saga are supposedly a united group, respecting the work of novels and appreciating the art of writing, I see Twilight fans being divided into Team Edward and Team Jacob. Now what is all that about? When one offers appreciation for a novel and its plot, one does not argue or segregate from other people who are their fellowmen. Why the need to split into two teams when both characters are formed from the same saga? Again, with a subjective viewpoint, I do not see Harry Potter fans arguing against nor dividing themselves so distinctly over being a Dark Arts follower or a part of Dumbledore's Army. Ultimately, whichever side they are on, they are one united body, supporting the works of J.K. Rowling and her ingenuity in tying the entire story together. Thus, it would be rational in my perspective to argue that there is no reasonable need to have two divided bodies supporting the same saga, because therein lies the irony itself, two differences forming a similar interest. How logical, then, can it be that Twilight allows for deeper appreciation and understanding when there are clearly lines of separation in the developments of characters itself on a face-value level? I end my point here.

Lastly, I just want to state that, although I remain a loyal Harry Potter fan, I do not dislike nor like Twilight in any way. I hold neutral opinions to it, because afterall, the fantastical and romantic elements of the plot serves to fulfil the unattainable in reality. In this sense, Twilight allows for contentment of what we cannot achieve. I repeat my point though, that despite the weighings of both novels, I would stick by Harry Potter, because personally, it holds more meaning and significance. After all, this is not a comparison, it is just my subjective commentary, and everyone is entitled to their preferences, which is why I respect my friends who adore Twilight, because I know that they have their own reasons for liking the saga.

End.

Harry Potter for the win. "

-wenagoh.


i'm still reading HMT.
quote of the day: Its the choice that terrifies me. A way out, a salvation.

Nothing changes instantaneously: in a gradually heating bathtub you'd be boiled to death before you knew it.

is that how you describe love, too?

HAHAHA i just joined this fb grp- If 1,170,000 ppl join,my girlfriend will marry me!

THIS IS UBER CUTE IF ONLY MY BF IS SOOO CUTE :D

when i joined the group i LOL-ed at his decription. here goes:


I have been with my girlfriend (Caroline) for over five years now. Six months ago, I made a proposal to her, but she rejected me. It was not about the amount of money that I have in bank or my ordinary look. I asked her why but she refused to tell me. I suspected that there was a third person in our relationship but I realized that it wasn't.

Two weeks ago, I proposed to her again. This time I brought her back to the place where we first met and I thought that I would succeed this time, but.... yet again I failed. She rejected me and this REALLY drove me mad. I love her very much, I can even give up my soul for her but why??

Then she told me that if I can get 1,170,000 people to back me up with my proposal, she will put on the ring.

This is ridiculous as where could I get such number of people but soon I realized that Facebook is the hope. I was reluctant at first because the whole world might laugh at me.

You can call me a fool or anything but I don't care anymore because for her I'll do anything. This group was born out of my LOVE to her.

You might be wondering why 1,170,000?

Well, We met on January, 17th, it was simply our anniversary date and to her (and me) this is a BIG Day!

I hope that you could help me to achieve the DREAM of my life.

It would be really helpful if you can leave some messages on the wall. So that I could prove to her that my LOVE is real.

Note: Would you please ask your friends to help me on this, I want to speed up this process so that I would at least get married on Jan 17th, 2010. Just click on the 'Invite People to Join' and select All your friends and I really thanks you for that.

"Caroline, I love you!"

bittersweet eighteenthhhhh<3

from my fb album's description:

sj's excessive white lies to me,four ppl tailing behind and suddenly ambushing me with beanie over my head and part of it stuffed in my mouth.tied me up w rafia strings until the security guard was called cuz thr was a security camera and they thought it was peer bullying HAHA. awesome fav bday cake w awesome practical...... presents(Y),you guys did everything you want to me-filled my belly button w cold water/tattooed my chest/forcefully scribbled@sole of my foot(HORRID)/me hopping alone in the middle of the crowded pathway w hands on my head/wearing bdayknife as necklace-thank yall so much for the effort,this celebration is etched deep in my mammaries HAHAHHAHAHAHA [dyna♥ ]


it was damn funny,
sj and i had consultation with ms lin @starbucks with the company of mae, sweehong and amanda.
halfway through sj said she needed to go to the ladies so she went off.
afterwards mae saw her coming back, FROM THE CORRIDOR WHICH DOES NOT LEAD TO THE TOILET.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.
we were surprised because the toilet's not very far away and sj was like, " HUH! OH! i went to the library toilet."
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA
IT WAS A PUBLIC HOLIDAY THE LIBRARY WASNT OPEN SILLY GIRL.
SILLY SILLY DILLY GIRL.

then she tried to rummage through the toilets she rmb in her mind BESIDES that toilet near starbucks AND the one in the library. HAHAHAHA

"OH! OH NO! I WENT TO CAUSEWAY POINT'S TOILET."
LMAO

yes she fabricated countless lies to me that day.

and i believed 90% of them.

AHAHHA

so after all the lying blahs, sj brought me to the goods lift [the lift besides the passenger lift] where it was pretty stuffy and quiet.
THEN, I SAW KS. through a misty checkered tiny rectangular window above the handle of a door. IT WAS SO SCARY. he was wearing grey somemore. and staring. HAHAHAHHA
at that mo it was completely surreal, i paused and stoned and stared, in my mind i was like, hur? hurhur how can ks be in this dusty place standing alone, staring at me through that tiny window?? that feeling was so uneasy.HAHA

then sj, she was DAMN RANDOM. SHE SAID SHE LOST HER FIFTY BUCKS.
so when i turned to follow her, several hands grabbed me from the back and my face was covered in this thickthick clothy sweaterish material stuff WHICH DIDNT TASTE GOOD HAHAHAHAH WHOEVER IT WAS, YOU STUFFED PART OF IT IN MY MOUTH. THANKS AH!

it seemed so serious, i panicked. felt rafia strings binding my limbs even though i was kicking like madness. HAAHAHHAHHA i think i injured them. LMAO.
suddenly this stupid ah beng ah seng voice spoke right beside my right ear- " euuuuu better beeeehavee eurself plopelly ah! ...heh... " [something like that]

it was hilarious but at the same time it was madness. unexpected, out of the blue heh.

THEN, THE THING THAT SHOCKED ME MOST WAS A SECURITY GUARD'S WALKIE TALKIE.
it sounded real, it was real!!! HAHAHHA apparently there was a security camera watching the entire scene and they thought it was peer bullying. HA! HA! HA! HA! ABSURD, SERIOUSLY.

hence with the REAL security guard and his walkie talkie which kept making stupid reception noises, dynamite took the beanie off my face AND MOUTH, and sang the one and only birthday song for me- the only people who sang it to me on my 18th birthday. thank you so much, what you guys have done, says alot. in fact, i was so touched. could have cried but the hilarity of the entire event overrides the touchy touchy pathos thingy.

a big thank you to dynamite. (L)


THANK YOU SO MUCH. this stupid girl lied to me. HAHAHAHA
okay lah then your buttonnnnn nose can be sharper, from now on right. HAHAHHAHAHA


they were cute they made me do so many dares IT WAS CRAZY.


i had to point and choose someone to ink tattoo me. HAHAHA without letting me see.
but still, i couldnt see it with my own eyes BECAUSE no matter how many triple friple chins i reveal when i look downwards i COULDNT SEE IT.


until i took a photo HAHAHA. so cute. shona's drawing is so cute.
guess what does it stand for? (:



i was forced to scream in public because they forcefully scribbled under my foot, the SOLE OF MY FOOT.
I SCREAMED MY SOUL OFF TOO. HAHAHAHHAHA
DO YOU KNOW HOW TICKLISH WAS THAT.




had to wear that but i think it looks AWESOME without me wearing it (:

imma hang this on my bedroom wall. :D

HA HA HA THANK GOODNESS NO STRANGER DARED.

ANYWAY, DO YOU REALISE THAT SJ'S ALWAYS, ALWAYS, FOREVER ON THE RIGHT???????

and there she is now, saying that she's always right. ahhhh blahblahblah. blah. HAHA

estatic, overjoyed, full of mirth :D

HAHA MOST PRACTICAL PRESENTS EVER! EVER EVER EVER!

just three days ago i was pestering sj and anvy to buy shorts with me from cotton on because there was an offer, two for thirty bucks! i wanted one. HAHHAHAH

SO THEY GAVE ME TWO. and the colours were EXACTLY the ones i wanted!!!!!

AND THEY KNEW MY SIZE?!

funniest part was giving me four pairs of citrusox. HAHAHA I'VE BEEN WANTING TO GET THEM LONG AGO THANKS TO YOU GUYS LAUGHING AT ME ALL DAY LONG ABOUT MY SOCKS BEING TOO VISIBLE AND HIGH. hahahahahhahahahhahahah hence they supplied me low cut socks so that i wont be laughed at ever again. THANK YOU (: (: (:

i literally burst out laughing when i saw the socks. HA HA HA

i was moving to my right because. BECAUSE wena was changing.AHHAHAHAHAH but i didnt know anvy placed that board on top of me!!!!! no wonder you guys were giggling. LMAO

THANK YOU TO THESE PEOPLE. GRATEFUL FOR THE EFFORT-

anvy (:

shona (:

wena (:

ching-er (:

KS. HAHAH we were bickering and saying horrible stuffs to each other while posing for a picture. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA as usual.
caught in the act!

ks : " omg i dont want to take a photo with you"

jo: " ya ya papaya like i want to. but whatever it's my bday"

ks: " oooookay lah okay lah i shall be nicer to you from now onwards"

HAHAHHAHAHAHA OKAY DISCLAIMER: the last part wasnt real.

SJ I LOVE THE BOOK. ESP THE LENGTHY LETTER.

TADA. *fakes a smile* HAHAHAHAH
thanks la dude,for being thr. you didnt spoil my surprise (:

weewooweet

i love this peek idk why?!

AND THIS. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww pujupuju

another aww pujupuju. melts.
btw she wanted the bag back. NO WAY LMAO

MY LAPPY'S WALLPAPER.

NICE

HEHEHHEE hug you guys till you suffocate. LMAO

new friendship bands. a new beginning.

the best girl you can ever have.

i've not been blogging i realised!

HEHE ONE MORE DAY TO MY PERMANENT FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR.

if birthday wishes come true then i wont have to fret about my last paper already. HAHAHAHAHHA

i need to reach the surface for air, i need air.

HAHA i deactivated my facebook HAHAHAHHAA




i just, just need to take a breath, just one breath, before i dive in under again.

september.

clear skies
fluffy clouds
drift
lazily

winds blow
and
the trees sway
gently

draw a heart
across the sky
while holding
your hand in mine

fingers trace
your name
on my heart
engraved

as you put
your head close
i hear
your thoughts

and fall asleep
under the heavens
to meet again
where dreams come alive

and where love never dies


m s ng.

under the tree
suddenly everything seems so far away.

double study date<3

woahhhh did alot alot of TYS questions, had alot of questions
hence met joel @ northpoint bk with bestie (:
it's damn good to see alllll your questions answered, SERIOUSLY.
met so many people thr, jason yinxiu keqing francis saman's friends.


AND WHY must people inquire about my love life before they can EVER tell me theirs?!
HUR? HUR HUR HUR HURRRR?! *hmphs to bestie and bestie's BOYFRIEND, yinxiu and yinxiu's BOYFRIEND HAHA*

anyway i have about six essay questions to do, from foofoopoofoo.
actually he's really cute in his way.
had a three-student consultation with him- he spent about twenty mins telling us that firstly :[here's the gist] he seriously feels that war is coming soon, when ussr reunites.

i asked him ," EH MR FOO so when war comes what will YOU do?"

foo: " eh i'll just stay at home and sleep. *pauses* and die thr loh!"

HAHAHHAHAHAHA

secondly, he lectured us on HISTORY. how spore is poart of a colony, blahblahs japan damn powerful. ahyo. ahyoahyo foofoopoomoo-

okay he's really naive and innocent in his own way. by the way i REALLY THINK that foo will be that type of guai guai mummy's boy whereby his mommy will fix up blind dates ^^ for him every weekend. awwwww pujupuju. serious puju. i hope he gets married and invites 33a ONE DAY.

anyway today's great, besides walking in the rain trying to sms, every once in a while having that shock of slipping halfway due to worn out havainnas, looking all drenched and ugly while ppl stare at you waiting for ban mian in kopitiam at 9:30pm, and lastly getting gastric pains RIGHT BEFORE i stuff my first mouthful of ban mian in my mouth.

eh nah, LASTLY. it's 12am! 9 MORE DAYS TO A'S! oh well.

HELLO A LEVEL

HELLO i'll shall make it short,

before math mock test everything was crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, cameras started to clickkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk, my head was spinningggggggggggggggzzzzzzxxxxxx

angel and devil. should i go for math mock test or should i not?! HAHAHA

and i love this peekture. i love i love i love. anyway sj was calling her mum with the gc. her mum says good luck for math test :D

GRAD DAY. I WANT TO TYPE ALOT STUFFS HERE BUT I DONT HAVE TIME.. SO!

THE MOST IMPT THING I WANT TO SAY IS,

I CANT WAIT FOR PROM :D

MISS KIONG! WA DAMN HAPPY I COULD TAKE ONE PHOTO WITH HER

HAVE NO FRET, 33A IS GOING FOR PROM, SO GRAD DAY DOESNT MATTER

I LIKE MS HO. HOHOHOHOHOH

I STILL LIKE MS HO.

right before taking the photo ms ho came up to me and said," EH JOEY! when you went up on stage they[teachers] were saying your skirt today DAMN LONG leh!"

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA

WELL I STILL LIKE MS HO.

EH, DE JAVU, WE TOOK A PHOTO LIKE THIS DURING CLASS BBQ-



HEHEHEHEHEHE JUST THAT FANG QI LIKE MORE CHIO THAN EVER SIA!
[she's going to kill me LMAO]

if you realised both our expressions ARE EXACTLY THE SAME. SOME THINGS NEVER CHANGE.

I WANNA BE JUST LIKE HER :D THE BEST TUTOR EVER

I LIKEY

indulgence,

taking the sweet sweet weewooweet melody ,

played by the piano pro--- KAISHENG. DUH, WHO ELSE CAN BE MORE PRO THAN HIM?!

LISTENING TO KAISHENG'S-------------


liang zhi lao hu.

liang zhi lao hu liang zhi lao hu

pao de kuai

pao de kuai

yi zi mei you er duo

yi zi mei you zuei ba

zhen qi guai

zhen qi guai

*CLASPS HANDS, STANDING OVATION*

I LIKEY

DYNAMITE FEAT. JANITOR!!!

WE HELPED HIM MOVED THE CHAIRS AND CLEARED THE RUBBISH FOR HIM :D

feels dammmmnnn good *shuang*

esp when you touch the smashed insect on the pamplet, indulge in it, *rubs* HAHAHAHAHAH

HOR WENA :D

BBALL FTW :D

A LEVELS IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER! JUST LIKE SJ, IT TRIES TO HIDE AND SCARE YOU!

JIAYOU. (:

when you feel it, suddenly.

now i know how it's like to feel alone
absolute solitas
left out
as little snippets flash in the mind,
snippets sourced from the past half decade
playing, projecting memories around self,
fast forwarding the heartwrenching moments
and downright mocking by pressing slow motion at the affectionate, touching moments full of mirth,

sitting in the room,
anything faced has a story on its own
where the tales all contribute to
that special connection once had.
the bears being cried on for years
the letters piled up in that box

the mirror once shared.

or perhaps, the snippets exude the reverse?
heartfelt moments fast forwarded
heartwrenching clips slow mo-ed.
jeering at us.

passed the period of being caught in the middle
leave or not to leave
which felt like forever

it's simply the experience of being haunted.



hence forever is only idealistic.

that was quite a show; very entertaining. but it's.

written on 20th may 2009-

actually, i didnt want to blog today.
but after seeing jobyforever.bs,
i suddenly understood alot of things that i didnt realise on many levels about the blog that i created months ago.
it's like, joby forever.
the thing is that whenever i blog there, i use the name "jo"
and when by blogs he uses the title "by"
and it's always, constantly, revolving around our names, our posts,
forever "jo" ;forever "by".

and the blog title itself serves its purpose.

and the second thing i realised is that the blog helped us in many, many ways.
for a very good example,
i wasnt very happy just now.
when i went online, i went to jobyforever because i miss it.
and i saw by's post which he just blogged.
it kind of eradicates that burning anger i had few mins ago.

many times,
you can never possess that ability to express to the person you hurt yet love -the person who just doesnt want to answer your call- about how apologetic you are.
we communicate to each other in little bite-sizes of short sentences and random snapshots of us that wholly depicts our love, hoping that we understand what we truly feel about one another.
and that itself, the purpose, allows us to last together. jo and by forever as it goes on and on with no intruders.

and jobyforever the phrase came up to us when we were only together for the first month, when by and i were still in secschool. i was only in sec2 then. it came up when we were sneaking love letters to each other, by passing his letter to my friends everyday without fail hoping that i get to receive his professed love on the foolscap paper.

it is so weird, to have a relationship for four years and a half- for having a first love like me. because from what i see couples are breaking up everyday, unable to tolerate each other -for only months! seriously, i truly believe that it's fate, coincidental stuffs like, our names are almost alike, and it forms joby. and the way we met each other is simply hilarious. our first date, becomes many dates, and our photos just accumulate forever, from tens to hundreds. i never know how it feels breaking away entirely from a person you love deeply, and i never know that feeling of being away from someone that close. because we never fail to contact each other everyday. even days when he went overseas, he brought his phone batteries and many caller id cards to contact me. i really dont know. thanks to this guy, he filled my life with tears, he brings joy, love, everything bitter and sweet. it is really weird to know that hey, my relationship with him and other couples are different. people look at our relationship in awe when i said oh we have been together for four years. even three years surprised them.

but by, why. i dont understand, like why is it that we can last that long. it's just awesome to me now, because it is only until now i truly realise how special this connection is. and i forgot how being single feels like. or a girl with a family but nobody else that you can truly count on whenever you need him.








thanks to you uh by. AHAHAHAA. for unknowingly making me "pc" this jobyforever phrase and our relationship. and now i'm in awe. HAHAHAHAHHAHAA. like wow, is this really happening to me? thing.

*************************************************************************************





jobyforever.bs is deleted from blogspot already. that was one of the reasons why i didnt blog for the past few weeks. another reason was that i didnt know how to express my sense of loss in words. there was only one option which is to be pathetic. to look pathetic. hence i really want to thank three people in my life who helped me even though i didnt reach out to them at all. i really didnt wish to look pathetic.






in this half a decade i learnt alot of things,
i've grown from a 13 yr old little insensible girl to an 18 yr old with a boy whom somewhat guided me throughout these years. without him i might smoke. without him i might club. or maybe without him i would be worse than an alcoholic. but when i grew up as i near 16 there was a role reversal. and absurdly i couldnt prevent it and feel tired being the mature one.

isnt it true; how about a round of applause.
standing ovation.

that was quite a show, very entertaining.
but it's over now.
go on and take a bow.


i realised this part of my life has taught me way too much. now i know what i'm looking for and what to prioritise in life. i can tell the difference btwn honesty and not, genuine or fake. i knew how it's like to feel completely unappreciated. to feel exploited. hence no matter how much i have lost , faith, all that shit, at least i gained experience.

WHOAAAAA it's been the longest since i've last blogged.

hey peopleeeeeeee especially to my alllllltime fav reader DAJIE HAHAHAHA apologies for not blogging. have been ehhhhhh very very busy!!!!!

i wanted to try the haitus thing on my blog but i just cant bring myself to do that ): if not i'll be bottling stuffs up and for once nobody knows anything about me HAHAH. okay tantilising.


ALL I CAN TELL YOU IS,

A LEVELS IS DAMMMMNNNNN TAXING. SO TIRING. HAAAALLOW, jc1 people dont joke around like i did okay! dont praypray. you dont study during j1 YOU DIE IN J2.

a SOLID evidence would be the absence of photos that i used to upload in albums and albums established practice. routinely. now, i'm going to post some ancient peektures which i know anyone has seen it already. too bad, i dont have any new photos ): which is EXACTLY my point, jc2 life is sad.


anvy and julia stayed over at my place DAMN LONG AGO[before prelims WOOT]. HAHAHAHHAA and we webcammed like madness! afterwards at about 3am everyone got damn high and hit each other with all my soft toys [IF YOU RMB I HAVE p-l-e-n-t-y]. i remembered mummy scolding me for making too much noise that night. zzz. zz zz z


a few of my favourite foutos :D

HAHAH damn retarded HHAHAA

ANVY AH ANVY

JULIA?! .. JUUULIA?!?!
ANVY HAS BUCKTEETH HERE

:D :D all are on facebook in the album with the title "TRAIN.BUSSTOP. UKUN NBBBB" eh something like that. LMAO.

and then there's rie's birthday! so long agoooooooooowwwww.

I LOVE THIS :D WENYA WAS THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHHA HELLO WENYA :D

:D

WA DAMN NICE LOH DAMN NICE.

sorry i just love this polaroid peekture. HAHAHHA

GAYS. farmville pro and jasonneo!

WAH THIS IS DAMN NICE LOH.
SHORT SHORT SHORT.

cherie gan! happy birthday HAHAHHA.

oh ya!'s

Lady Gaga Concert at Fort Canning Park, 12 August 2009.

the concert was freaking AWESOME.

the worst thing was, my stupid LG 's battery went flat when Inquisitive appeared dj-ing and right before GAGA APPEARED. WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

i got from my friend jas :D

DAMN NICE LOH. SHE'S DAMN HOT. DAMN DAMN HOT.

her bubbles piano[!!!!!!!!!!!] and her sexy costumes HAHAHHAHA

DAMN COOL I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT .


lastly, lunch with BESTIE :D :D :D :D that day was LOVE.

i superrrrrrrrrr love this hor bestie i love you ^^

it felt so much better talking to you and laughing my heart out HAHAHHAA

awwwwwwwwwwww.

sheng jing bing you mao bing

classic. LMAO

we actually went through the entire session of retail therapy and HELL YEAH IT WORKED I FELT SOOOO MUCH BETTER HAHAHAHHA bought shorts, dresses [DAJIE YOU SAID MUST WEAR DRESS DONT ALWAYS WEAR TEE SHIRTS SHORTS RIGHT] bangles and whatnots, OH! couple bohemian bangles for each other :D :D :D

hennywei, [ does the sj's hand gesture LMAO]

dont have time to blog about idiotic laugh-my-heartass-out-like-madness incidents

eg. ABEL'S AND PRIS'S " PO PO THINKING WE MOW LAWNS" in ne-yo's song HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

OKAY PEOPLE IF YOU THINK NIGGA IT'S POLICE'S THINKING WE TAKE DRUGS

BUT IF YOU THINK IN DIALECT..

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA

get it?!?!?!? dont get it ask me HAHAHHAHA

and the stewpid DYNAMITE IMITATING ME THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE BREAK WTHELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL IMAGINE MY AGONYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY THEY CAN REALLY MAKE YOU LYAO [laugh your ass off]

AND KAI SHENG YOU BETTER GET YOUR ASS BACK TO IJ FROM TODAY ONWARDS IF NOT ME, YOUR CHAIRMAN [huh you still rmb who's your chairperson hur hur hurHURHURHUR?!?!?!?] WILL MAKE SURE YOU DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

end of busy dramamama.