when you feel it, suddenly.

now i know how it's like to feel alone
absolute solitas
left out
as little snippets flash in the mind,
snippets sourced from the past half decade
playing, projecting memories around self,
fast forwarding the heartwrenching moments
and downright mocking by pressing slow motion at the affectionate, touching moments full of mirth,

sitting in the room,
anything faced has a story on its own
where the tales all contribute to
that special connection once had.
the bears being cried on for years
the letters piled up in that box

the mirror once shared.

or perhaps, the snippets exude the reverse?
heartfelt moments fast forwarded
heartwrenching clips slow mo-ed.
jeering at us.

passed the period of being caught in the middle
leave or not to leave
which felt like forever

it's simply the experience of being haunted.



hence forever is only idealistic.