It's time to live

i really dont like it, no, i loathe it.

1.) i hate being misunderstood. really really hate. this is number one.
2.) i hate to be pushed around, although sometimes i felt that from teachers. but i didnt voice out to everyone, i kept it to myself and i didnt complain.

3.) i loathe it when someone can have the nerve to make use of my soft-heartness. i know i am, everyone knows i am but i dont mind being soft-hearted even if it means i'm easy to be pushed around, but not being made used of, especially by someone from my very own class, something i treasure the most. and i hate it when you complain things arent done when YOU are the one who is supposed to take the first step instead of blaming everything on the circumstances around you. i have been through the worst, worse than you at a younger age and i believe that everyone would have had their very own crazy, almost impossible situations before that they probably thought they wont make it, but in the end they did. so you know why are you in this type of situation where you can never ever get out of it?? it's because YOU didnt try. if you said you tried, then you didnt try hard enough. no one can tell. even an almost neutral person like me dont think so. so you want to go around blaming people? go ahead. if everything is still the same even after your schooldays and it happens in your work and you cant take it, dont come running back and say why didnt i tell you earlier. you're so old already, can you learn how to stop fabricating things and stop pretending? i used to feel at least a hint of pity for you, given your circumstances, although it's not really bad. not happy? i know you're reading this. then you are welcome to confront me anytime. be sure to prepare your speech and ways to smoke your way through because i will have a never-ending session with you and I DONT NEED TO FAKE AND FABRICATE STORIES TO WIN YOU.