fkcare

yesterday spells mixture of absolute fun and pmsing.
sorry if i ever ruined stuff, but my painkillers werent working very well and it sucked to have menses on the day you have been looking forward to. wasnt really my usual self, i hate menstrual cramps.

julia ng if you're reading this,
it has been so nice seeing you! :))) <--my triple friple chins i bet you saw ytd hahahaa

speaking of usual self.
read a blog entry after i reached home.
depression yet disgust filled my sober self.
who are you to judge me.
you dont even know me.

afterall, i thought you were a great friend.
not just any acquaintanceship, i felt you could be someone i would share my troubles with.
seriously, who are you to judge me.

and i dont "try". this is me. if you dont like me, dont bother smiling at me.
i dont want to see all that fakeness in you because you claim that you're honest.

i know, i'll tell you now.
i dont fake that. i wont even smile at you from now on.
wont even talk to you and i wont even read your blog from now on because i dont blame you.
it's my fault for being naive and thinking that we could be something more.
yup blame me for reading your entries. because you have the freedom to post anything you want.

how i wish i have some boo to drown myself in.