I feel like I'm drowning in ice water
My lips have turned a shade of blue
I'm frozen with this fear that you may disappear
Before I've given you the truth
I bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here

'Cause I can't say what I want to

I bleed my heart out just for you

some things that i dream of but might never.

guess the colourrrrrrrrrrahhh

I highlighted a teen weeny bit. heheheheee

I dont have the guts to do this yet. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I would buy a wig instead if I were this guy.

I always say I love all colours except the shit colour.

So, what's my ultimate favourite colour?

electric brue blue hue

electric bluefied face

sweet ttm. i like the word sweetie.

I saw these articles somewhere:

I was on the bus on my way to the mall, when a homeless man sat next to me.

He saw that I was looking at the bouquet of flowers he held, and told me that they were for his wife because today is her birthday.

As he got off the bus, he walked into the cemetery and placed the flowers on his wife's grave.

A love that never dies.

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My best friend's grandma had been fighting Alzheimer's for about 10 years, and she barely remembered her husband of 64 years.

Last night, she miraculously found her husband's hospital room (he was dying of cancer) and climbed into his bed.

They died together that night.

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My boyfriend was eager to meet my Mom, despite my various protests.

I pulled into the parking lot of the cemetery where she's buried, expecting him to completely freak out.

When we approached her grave, he sat down, said hello, and talked with her for an hour about how lucky he was to have me.

HAAHHA oooooo, the title seems to be TOO BIG. HOR?

HAHA just playing around.

anyway

I found this while clearing rubbish in my lappy. and oh-my-goodness, look at how crazy we were, dajie sj julia and I, we were playing for the hell of it, and who CARES about summer test. HAHAHAHAHAHA, before pw times :D it gets funnier as the video plays. It was JC1. heheheeeee I miss times like this.

I think I look freaking freaking retarded, and dajie was so damn obsessed with her swollen chin, sj was engrossed in tilting and twisting her head with her gaping mouth and longest tongue. AHHAAHAHAHAHA with julia at the end. LMAO. Anyway I didnt realise that my boobs were SO BIG for a moment,and definitely NOT the part where they were laughing at me. I didnt know what the hell! And I heard myself saying, " It's so funny seeing wena in her pajamas blahblah" HAHAHAHA I wasn't bitching about you wena! Hugs. AHAHAHAH

Anyway [again] I have lots of posts saved as draftsssssss. Need to complete them before publishing. Hehehehee

OH YES is my blogskin okay? I kinda chose a template, added background and I edited the font and colours. I have good designing skills righttttt I should just go Laselle rightttt ^^ HAHAHAHAHAA wahpiang. Just kidding arh.

By the way I just came back from Resorts World and Universal Studios, AND I went to a super super nice spa whereby I was massaged till 2am last night wthell but it was so expensive thank god my uncle sponsored all of us. I was so close to being pulled out of my damp towel when I was in the spa- MY COUSINS WERE ALL TUGGING AND I KNOW THERE WERE A LOT PEEK-A-BOOS, I bet they saw everything when they pulled, can. I remembered seeing my freaking boob la OMGGGG RAHHHHHHHH TSKK. And the pipes were like blowing bubbles pushing my towel upwards. Funniest thing was my cousin and I were looking at bubbles/water spraying out of our cleavages because we were sitting on the bubbling area. Dont think dirty hur. It was 1k plus in total. I was telling sj, next time la next time. When we are rich la HOR. HAHAHAHA and all of us stayed up at uncle's place watching FIFA till 4:30am with jolly shandy[LOVE]. I'm dead beat. Dead meat. Hehehe bought a hell lot of clothes and accessories too,ate tons of jap fooddddd, steamboat and ding tai feng's XIAO LONG BAO OMG with the prawn fried rice........ai em soooouu hepeey :D It was heaven. But now I'm smacked back into reality, got to wake up by 7:30am tomorrowwww,as usual. ): But something got me hyped up and looking forward to September - my aunt's sponsoring me to bagpack with her inTaiwan!!!! For a week! omfggggggg she says, just bring your own shopping money. I'm going to save a hell lot now. :D Can I earn if I put adverts here? HAHAHAHA just kidding. Photos next post. Aaahhh okay, one photo that I love like madness:

I was really, reaaaaally hoping to get surprised by you at the custom. Swear to God cross my heart I was praying so hard.

So I was just an experiment gone wrong.
Experiment, a try-out, Is that how everyone sees me?
What have I done? What did I do, that gave people the urge to make use of me, dump me?
Am I really that easy to be tricked, bullied and thrown away?

Why am I so naive?

I need someone to tell me why, and how to be me again. Where is the confident I who wasn't afraid of loneliness, who has truckloads of confidence?

Where's my guardian angel.

halfdone; publishforfun; ooo it rhymes- hor fun. HAHA siao.

Yesterday before I went to Sakura with my parents, my mum was like: " EEEH! YOUR HAIR AH, WHY LIKE THAT?! Come come I style for you. " *grabbed the gatsby and folded her sleeves*

My dad did that daddy-ish chuckle: " HEHE mummy knows how to style short hair sioooollll hehe"

Mum: " EH I KNOW ONE OKAY. I know how to style short hair OKAY. " *snobby face@dad*

HAHAHAHAHAHA retarded can. This morning after I got out of my bedroom with my ALREADY styled hair, SHE HAD TO RUINED IT by insisting on styling for me. Couldn't she tell I've already spent half an hour styling?! RAHHH just by thinking of it boils my blood. HAHAHA just kidding. I think.. mimi's quite cute hur. hurhurhur erh hm.

And I couldn't believe it Joey Wong actually likes soft shell crabs and sashimi salmon with a tinge of wasabi. Yesterday she ate ten pieces of salmon, 5 tiny soft shell crabs and 10 pieces of shisamo[however they spelt it]-tiny fish with lots of tiny eggs in their bellies. Now I know why dad likes them.

Crazy thing was that I chiong-ed more than Dad and Ben. I was still dumping the oreo cheesecake [WOO!] and kuey lapis into my poor overworked stomach when they have already given up. I think I ate too much on Sunday.

ANDDDD

Saturday-the day before, lured by Wena's beaming face illustrating /recommending how mouth-watering-delicious-orm-nom-nom fried ice cream is, Alina Sj and I headed to Bukit Timah's indian/muslim kopitiam! By the way THEY HAVE HORLICKS DINOSAUR, HORLICKS T-REX AND HORLICKS GODZILLA OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG <-- for people who know me very well, LOOK AT THIS LOOK AT THIS, MINYI/BEL/ZACK/EVERYBODYYYY OMGGGGG

I've forever been asking if there is Horlicks whenever the kopitiam uncle/auntie comes up, and usually they don't even have Horlicks.

GODZILLA OMGoodness. I can't get over it, WENA SJ ALINA I really CANNOT get over it. :D

We ordered so much. And the best part was when we accumulated money together we figured that it will be around $60 +, like zichar. But this is Indian Zichar. HAHAHAHAHAHA

GUESS HOW MUCH.

$20.

OMG.

CHEAP TTM. Tested and passed, I didn't have any diarrhoe or food poisoning. It's AWESOMEEE, $20 INDIAN ZICHAR FOR THE WINNNN HAHAHAHHAHA

awesome awesome

***falling asleep soon, continue tmr hehehehe cute hur hehe

monologue

"It was our first chat. I talked to you through msn, that was my first time i talked to a stranger online. You're the first, and last. I thought maybe we wouldn't chat for long, but we did. There's something about you that I just couldn't resist. I know I had to be there for you, talk to you.

It was then I realise, I want you.

But you're not mine."

"Great, because I am not him, I can never be him.
I admit, I've lost."

"I really wish, you're mine"

"One day, I'm bringing you to my family, tell them how 'gay' I am to have found you."