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Six more days!!! (Y)

Am but drenched in vanilla twilight

Today was the most stressful, mind-exploding day.

I've never felt this bad, not even when I was studying because I owe these people my promises, my word. Growing up with the mentality of hating to disppoint others is slowly eating me up.

I have no one to tell this to, I feel stuck in that loser atmosphere. I couldnt bring it up to my darling designer, HT and Pat because they were packed with their complaints, I was supposed to hear them out. Luckily MS was there to hear me out for a while. Night ball streetmatches definitely healed me temporary, hanging out with these people chilled me like a cup of Mac ice milo, for two hours.

This morning while I was travelling, I listened to the radio, and this song popped up. It was that nostalgic moment when you'll just stare out from the bus, looking at literally nothing but flashes - right in front of you, and you'll feel that joy all over again, and afterwards the instinctive pain accompanied with tears welling up all over again, too. It's like a cycle, a habit. But I'm breaking out of this like how Michael Scofield breaks out of Foxriver and Sona prisons. ^^

Anyway Prison Break is so awesome, finished every season. You wouldnt believe it but the part that I cried like shit was when Bellick sacrificed himself. It's so freaking sad. I didnt cry that much when Sara supposedly got her head chopped off. hahahahahaha

Prison Break is nicer than Lost. But Lost's ending taught me a hell lot like a lit book with a deeper understanding of the human life.

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

Merely, and nothing more;

The context of the song has changed.

It doesnt matter who sang this song to me.

It all boils down to the application of wordplay. (:

I wish I can do something about it.

Gosh, the truth is I feel damn sad right now because the line between us is just too clear. I need you, right back when I first knew you. Pardon me for stepping across that boundary, it has been exasperating.

I think you dont need me at all. I dont even think that you'll ever, see this.

Even if you do see this, you wont think that I'm referring to you.

Imma rocketeer

Hohoho I've been tagged. I would like to try it but I dont want to post it on fb AHAHAHAHAHAHA



Once you've been tagged, you are suppose to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. Tagged means "I'm interested in knowing what are your 100 truths". (To do this, go to "notes" under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app then click publish.) And if you don't fill this out and post it within a day of seeing it, you will turn into a maroon pineapple.

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POSTING THIS AS: 100 truths.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Water

2. Last phone call: My darling designer

3. Last text message: Sorry you are? Haha sorry I accidentally cleared your number.

4. Last song you listened to: Rocketeer

5. Last time you cried: Few hours ago



HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Got back with someone you've broken up with: Yes

7. Been cheated on: Yes

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No

9. Lost someone special: Yes

10. Been depressed: Yes

11. Been drunk and threw up: No, never threw up


LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. ALL COLOURS

13. especially

14. Electric BLUE



THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

15. Made a new friend: PLENTY!!!

16. Fallen out of love: Yes

17. Laughed until you cried: YES HAHAHAHAHA

18. Met someone who changed you: Yes

19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes, totally.

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Everybody talks about everybody

21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list: Yes

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 90%

23. How many kids do you want?: 2 [twins!!!!!! XD]

24. Do you have any pets?: I had two fighting fish, one called nehneh, one called pok. Afterwards SJ and I had two terrapins, one called chilli zwilala and the other pepper bomchacha.

25. Do you want to change your name: No, I love my name. It suits me.

26. What did you do for your last birthday: I was kidnapped, refer to blog post. :D And after the best celebration in the world, someone screwed it up badly. Cried but someone else made it worthwhile at night 11pm. (:

27. What time did you wake up today?: 0745am. *inserts sian face*

28. What were you doing at midnight last night?: Texting and holding on to my phone while lying on my bed in the dark.

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: MY BIRTHDAY!!!! HAHAHAHAHA

30. Last time you saw your Mother: This morning!

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?: Too many stuffs, some doable, some impossible.

32. What are you listening to right now: 987fm

34. Who is getting on your nerves now? customers

35. Most visited webpage: Facebook

36.Whats your real name: Wong Joey.

37. Nicknames: Jo & Toddler Jo. HAHAHAHAHAHA

39. Zodiac sign: Sagittarius

40. Male or female?: Female

41. Primary School?: Qihua Primary School

42. Secondary School?: Presbyterian High School

43. High school/college?: Innova Junior College

44. Hair color: Apricot with a tinge of rebellious streak

45. Long or short: Short.. ):

46. Height: 153cm. HAHAHAHA I KNOW. i know.

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Yes

48: What do you like about yourself? Almost everything, I try to.

49. Piercings: 3

50: Tattoos: Maybe soon

51. Righty or lefty: Righty but a little lefty too


FIRST:

52. First surgery: Lasik

53. First piercing: Primary 2

54. First best friend: Kindergarten ^^ t'was a boyyyy

55. First sport you joined: Table tennis. That changed my life.

56. First vacation: Sentosa

57. First pair of trainers: Since young?



RIGHT NOW:

58. Eating: Mos Fish Burger!!!

59. Drinking: Ice Milk Tea

60. I'm about to: Go back to work.

61. Listening to: You gonna miss me when I'm gone

62. Waiting for: You

63. I'm feeling: A little impatient..


YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?: Yes

65. Get married?: Yes

66. Career: Public Relations, Marketing, Language, Literature, Stockbroker

67. Lips or eyes: Eyes and Lips

68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs and kisses

69. Shorter or taller: Taller

70. Older or Younger: Older

71. Romantic or spontaneous: As spontaneous as me, romantic like hell.

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Everything would appear nice to me.

73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive and perhaps not as loud as me.

74. Hook-up or relationship: No hookups for life.



HAVE YOU:

75. Kissed a stranger: Nope

76. Drank hard Liquor: Yes

77. Lost glasses/contacts: Lost too many times that I have to have Lasik

78. Sex on first date: NO

79. Broken someone's heart: Yes

80. Been arrested: No.

81. Turned someone down: Yes

82. Cried when someone died: Definitely. Of course

83. Fallen for a friend: Yes


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: Yes, I have to believe in myself before anyone else can believe in me. That's what I tell myself.

85. Love at first sight: Yes

86. Heaven: Yes

87. Santa Claus: Used to.

88. Kiss on the first date: Perhaps

89. Angels: Yes. Guardian angels, yes.

90. God: Yes.


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

91. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No.

92. Did you sing today?: YES!

93. Did something illegal?: Perhaps.

94. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 15

95. The moment you would choose to relive?: Too many moments, answer might turn out as essay.

96. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yes. Terrified.

97. When was the last time you lied?: A few months ago.

98. Are you usually late, early or right on time?: A little late hehehe.

99. Would you give your life to save someone else's?: For the ones I love and cherish, yes.

100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths?: NO! (:


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I feel so happy today!!!!

and act like

Samantha ت says (12:46 AM):

so what do you wanna hear from me? (:

allhailthedramamama joeywong says (12:47 AM):

HAHAHAHAA i wanna know what you think about me

Samantha ت says (12:48 AM):

i think you're nice

a little too nice

but

too trusting

idk how to put it, but i wonder how do you ever find strength to hold on to things

Maybe I dont really hold on to things, maybe I am just naive enough to have the patience and appreciation, foolishly waiting for miracles to happen, waiting for the other to initiate.

o.o

I saw this somewhere in fb and when I read it, it was likeeeeee..., HAHAHAHA seriously I bet this must be written by a girl?! So many steps and so many demands. So scary. HAHAAH maybe she meant for her guy to read it that's why she posted it. But it's kinda nice because if it's jotted down from a guy's notes, that's freaking sweet. Probably could get any girl he wants. HAHAHAHAHAAH WTH.

1. Touch her waist.

2. Actually talk to her.

3. Share secrets with her.

4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts

5. Kiss her slowly.

6. Hug her.

7. Hold her.

8. Laugh with her.

9. Invite her everywhere.

10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

11. Smile with her.

12. Take pictures with her.

13. Pull her onto your lap.

14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.

15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.

17. Kiss her unexpectedly.

18. Hug her from behind around the waist.

19. Tell her she's beautiful.

20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.

22. Tell her she's your everything - only if you mean it.

23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.

25. Kiss her in front of other girls you know

26. Dont lie to her

27. Dont cheat on her

28. Take her where she wants

29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you miss her.

30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you.

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold you too.

32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.

33. Kiss her on the cheek (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).

34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Dont ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.

36. When people diss her, stand up for her.

37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.

38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.

39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.

40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible

41. Call or text her every night to wish her sweet dreams

42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.

43. Take her for long walks at night.

44. Always remind her how much you love her.

45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.

46. Rub her back--feels good

47. Give her your coat if she's cold--thats always cute

48. Write letters on her back with your finger--feels good

49. Let her sit on your lap

50. Poke her lightly

51. Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.

52. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionately and gently.

53. Surprisingly sneak up to her and hug her from behind

54. Kiss her in the rain.

55. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.

56. Slow dance with no music

57. Don't ignore her or be nervous around her--everything is going to be okay.

Sometimes it's really hard to muster that courage one used to have, because one has been disappointed too many times. Gotta keep telling myself to live like I'm dying. And stop questioning where's my s.h. now. And halt the relentless search for my guardian angel., I wish I could laugh like how I used to laugh.

internal monologue

hmmmm I've thought for very long, and what I want for my birthday is a really awesome celebration with all my great friends and family as usual, and a camera. and maybe that swatch watch. ^^

I wanna make it a chalet, but I dont know how to cater to all the different types and groups of friends. That's the worry.

Another worry would be zee budget.