tough love

I finally broke the curfew today.

Curfew is at 11pm.

I reached home at 11:15pm tonight.

Mum, Dad,

I love you.

Mum.

I cant seem to talk to you.

You dont listen to me. Like... see? You're talking again.

We cant communicate

Do you realise that?

I think we need to do something about this.

I love you alot, you know, mi. I love this family very much.

Do you know I always yearn to hug you, always wish that...

I could tell you anything.

I always secretly wish that you could be my bestfriend.

I love to take photos with you.

I love to comment on movies with you and dad.

I love to listen to stocks and financial topics that you always bring up, times when you really treat me like an adult.

Do you know why I don't come home very much?

I don't like to come home to you, mi.

Because I hate to argue with you.

I hate to keep quiet and you just scream your top off, at me.

From the smallest things, like washing my bra.

From the most ridiculous things, like not scrubbing the toilet thrice a week.

Like me being clumsy when I wash my plates.

I dont understand,

why were you never, ever proud of me before.

I achieved funny, alternate things that you never expected me to.

You were upset.

Not that they're bad achievements.

It's just that they are not the ones you want me to achieve.

But those expectations that you have,

are choking me up.

As long as they are not academic achievements,

they are trash to you.

I'm sorry I'm not the smartest person, I'm not the girliest girl, I'm not the prettiest girl. I'm sorry that I'm not exactly a very successful teenager.

I feel stressed up when I step home everyday.

Ma, I love you.

I want to feel happy, when I'm home.

Mum I tried staying home for an entire week, remember?

You screamed at me about the smallest things.

I felt like I was trapped in a jail.

Dont you want me to be happy?

I want you to be happy too.

Ma, do you remember,

There was this day recently when I reached home super early,

I watched tv with you.

I mustered enough courage to bring up a topic so that we could talk, because it was awkward being with you.

You simply ignored me and I thought you couldnt hear;when I asked again,

you snapped at me.

Why did you do that?

Was I too noisy?

Did you need some space, anything...?

What made you snap?

Was it my existence?

Then why do you want me home so early?

If you miss me, just say it.

Say it to me.

Say that you miss me.

Say things that I've never heard in my entire life, from you.

Ma, I realise that you never, ever said you love me before.

I know you want the best for me.

I know, it sucks to be my mother.

I'm hard to manage.

I'm sorry I wasted so much of your time, your efforts, your sleep.

I aint exactly the daughter you dreamt longnights smiling when you were preggy with me.

I wasnt as excellent as the Joey Wong you think you raised me to be,

when I was crushing the crayons and crumpling the drawing papers

when I was exploring musical notes with my baby grand piano,

when I was dressing up my dolls and rolling on the sand.

Nothing interests me more than going out with you, do you know that?

My heart thumps hard everytime you look at me with those angry eyes.

I needed you but I didnt go to you.

I love you but I guess you think I hate you.

It's simple, ma.

It's just a strained relationship.

We can make it right.

Dont blame yourself for not being with me when I was younger.

Dont blame yourself for the lack of motherly love given to me because of your career.

Dont push yourself too hard for me.

I wish I could do something right this time.

I wish you know that I love you.

I wish that you can be proud of me, at least once in my life.

I wish that you could say that you love me.

I love you.

HAHAHAHA a must-read.

Something I found in my PB's blog. HAHAHAHAHAHA AWESOME TTM. WENA SHONA ALINA SJ, SHALL WE? ^^ When we go to school together.

122 things to do in school.

1. Randomly get out of your seat and sit on the floor.

2. If the person next to you is quiet, turn and inform them that they are distracting you.

3. Color red dots all over your arm and show the teacher, and tell her/him that you are allergic to School.

4. Take out sock puppets and play with them, and occasionally have them grab your classmate’s hair. When the teacher looks, keep the sock on your hand and point to your classmate and tell the teacher that the classmate is attacking you with puppets.

5. If your teacher walks around the room during the test, cover your test and glare at them suspiciously.

6. When the teacher calls on you to answer a question, talk in a creepy voice and say `I’ll never tell’ and a few questions later raise your hand and ask why you haven’t been allowed to answer a question yet.

7. When coming back from bathroom, walk through the door. Then ask how you got there.

8. Raise your hand and ask if you can be excused to skip class.

9. Meow and bark occasionally.

10. Chew gum in class. If teacher says something, take out packs of gum and start passing out gum.

11. Stand up and introduce yourself at the beginning of class (even though everyone knows you). Inform everyone that you have had `the problem’ for three years now. Then act confused and ask if the class is Alcoholics Anonymous.

12. Shove your heaviest book off your desk. Repeat. Glare at someone else every time the teacher looks at you.

13. Make a cone shape out of paper and glue red tissue paper to the top. Scribble/draw red and orange all over it. Wear it on your head and tell everyone that you’re a volcano.

14. Tell your teacher you don’t need to do your homework because you’re skipping school tomorrow.

15. Write `Gullible’ on a piece of paper. Tape that piece of paper to the floor, ceiling, or chalkboard. Then tell everyone there is gullible written on the ___(floor ceiling or chalkboard).

16. Yell out STOP DROP AND ROLL.

17. If someone speaks over the intercom, curl up in fetal position under your desk and say `It’s the voices again.’

18. Randomly get up and run a lap around the room, then sit down and act as if nothing had happened.

19. Get up and get a tissue, then just stand and stare at the tissue. If asked what you are doing by the teacher, claim that you are having a staring contest with the tissue and you’re sure you are about to win.

20. Lead your class in a sing-a-long.

21. Invent an imaginary hamster. Ask everyone if they would like to hold him.

22. In a creepy voice say to everyone `You will die in seven days’ Act like nothing had happened.

23. Get up to sharpen your pencil or find a tissue, then stand up there and look around. Then cry out `I’m lost ’

24. Ask if you can teach the class.

25. Act like you’re in the army, saluting to teachers and calling them ma’am and sir. March everywhere.

26. If a teacher isn’t already in the classroom, when they enter, inform them that they are late and should report to the principal.
Like, say `like,’ like, a lot…like

27. Draw a flipbook at the bottom right corner of your notebook.

28. Re-enact or make up your very own 50-minute silent movie.

29. Use a kick me sign. As a challenge, see how many people you can put a kick me sign on without them knowing it.

30. Start singing Can you feel the love tonight from the Lion King.

31. Every time someone asks you to do something, ask if they want fries with that.

32. Finish all your sentences with In accordance with the prophecy.

33. End all sentences with .co.uk .

34. Leave your zipper open for one hour. If anyone points it out, say, Sorry, I really prefer it this way .

35. When someone says Have a nice day , tell them you have other plans .

36. Hold up a piece of paper that says in large letters CHECK YOUR FLY .

37. Shout WOW after every sentence of the lecture.

38. Ask whether you have to come to class.

39. Every few minutes, take a sheet of notebook paper, write Signup Sheet at the top, and start passing it around the room.

40. Stand to ask questions. Bow deeply before taking your seat after the professor answers.

41. Interrupt every few minutes to ask the professor, Can you spell that?

42. Disassemble your pen. Accidentally propel pieces across the room while playing with the spring. Go on furtive expeditions to retrieve the pieces. Repeat.

43. Bring a small cactus to class with you. Raise your hand, and when you’re called on, say that the cactus has a question. Turn and look at the cactus, as if you’re waiting for it to say something. After a few moments, shrug, and wait for your professor to move on. Do this once a day, and become increasingly irritated with the cactus every time, sighing heavily and giving it evil looks when it fails to “speak.” When you leave the room after class, start yelling at the cactus, “I can’t believe you embarrassed me AGAIN….”

44. Brush your teeth during class. While doing so, raise your hand as if you have a question, and mumble your question incoherently while brushing, spewing toothpaste all over the place. If your professor objects to your actions, go on a tirade about proper oral hygiene.

45. Carve a bust of your professor out of cheese. Tie a ribbon around it, and present it to him/her at the beginning of class. Demand extra credit.

46. Get the whole class to show up a few minutes early, and throw a surprise party for your professor. Insist that you can’t start class until he/she has a piece of cake. Keep asking people when the strippers are going to arrive.


47. Start asking questions in a fake foreign language. Act like your professor is stupid for not being able to understand you. Get other people in the class to start speaking the fake language too, and have frequent discussions during class. Act like you’re really interested in what you’re discussing. If your professor tries to interrupt or stop you, act annoyed and motion for him/her to quiet down.

48. Wait for your professor to mention a date, and then yell out, “Bingo!” Apologize, and explain that you got confused.

49. Organize a bunch of people in one class to emit a low humming noise, keeping straight faces.

50. Organize a whole bunch of people to fall off their chairs at the same time.

51. Organize a whole bunch of people to drop their pencils/pens at a preset time.

52. Superglue coins to the floor, count how many people try to pick them up.

53. Write fake love notes and slip them into people’s lockers

54. When you use the bathroom, get a LOT of soap on your hands (If it’s the slimy kind), but don’t wash it off, just leave goo all over doorknobs, railings, etc.

55. Screaming gibberish in crowded hallways is always good for a laugh.

56. Run around the school suspiciously with your hands in a gun shape while humming the misson impossible tune.

57. Look at the person next to you for a while then say “your one of them!” then run out the class room.

58. Stand up and pretend you are a flight attendent and review the emergency procedures and exits.

59. name your pen Mr Pen, talk to him often, cry and go mad if Mr pen commits suicide (falls off the table).

60. Put a sign on your desk that says “Out of my mind be back soon” Then go to sleep. If your teacher wakes you up Scream CAN’T YOU READ THE SIGN? then go back to sleep.

**ADDITIONALS**

61. Walk into the classroom like a super spy. (keep your back on the walls as you walk, point your finger up like a gun, look around with shifty eyes, hum the mission impossible theme, etc.)

62. After everything your teacher says, ask why continuously.

63. If your teacher is yelling at a classmate, wait for them to finish their tantrum then ask” DOES SOMEBODY NEED A HUG?????” very loudly.

64. If your teacher starts blowing up at you for saying that, simply reply, “wow I can tell you’re a blast at parties”

65. Sit in a corner and wait for everyone to stare at you. When they do, grab your head and scream “ THE LIGHT! MAKE IT STOP! ARGH IT BURNS!!!!”

66. Flick pieces of paper around the class.

67. When your teacher tells you to stop, cross your arms and say, “Your racist against paper aren’t you.”

68. Don’t do your Homework.

69. When your teacher asks you why you didn’t do your homework say “I dropped it while beating up this guy for saying you’re the worst teacher ever.” then sit there and smile sweetly.

70. When you have a supply teacher, wait for them to write their name on the board. Then when they say hello my name it Mr./Mrs (insert name here), you stand up and say “PROVE IT!”

71. When your teacher asks why you were late say, “My goldfish died.” Then burst into tears.

72. When handing in your homework, write this paper will self-destruct in 5 seconds at the bottom.

73. When you leave the class bow and say, “May the force be with you, young one.”

74. When the teacher turns the light off, start singing opera as loud as you can. When they turn the light back on, look around pretending to be confused.

75. Whisper to the person next to you. When the teacher comes up behind you, scream “OMG GET AWAY! RAPE! RAPE! RAPE!!!!!!!!!!!!”

76. Walk into class dancing the Macarena

77. Tell your teacher you heard the other teachers talking about him/her in the staff room

78. Raise your hand and say “I totally agree” after everything your teacher says

79. Spend the whole lesson trying to lick your elbow

80. Speak in French.

81. Come late to class in a Spider-Man costume; say there was “a disturbance”

82. When they tell someone to turn around have everyone in class do it as well

83. “The homework’s due now? Oh, give me a minute then.”

84. Hand in an essay where every word is mispelt.

85. Run in the room screaming, “THE WORLD IS GOING TO END!”

86. When the teacher asks you why you are late, say, “the queen is never late, everyone else is simply early”.

87. When a teacher asks you a question, say, “I’m sorry, the brain you tried to reach has been disconnected, please leave me alone or try again later, thank you.”

88. When the teacher turns on the overhead projector, scream “AAH MY EYES!!”

89. Tell yourself knock knock jokes, then laugh loads.

90. Hide under your desk and yell “THE SKY IS FALLING!”

91. When someone knocks on the door, shout “OH NO, THEY’RE COMING FOR ME!”

92. Bring in a year 7 and says he’s your new pet.

93. In your technology lesson, when the teacher asks you what you are making, say a nuclear bomb.

94. When your teacher asks you a question just stare at them.

95. Constantly talk to yourself in a low voice.

96. Purposely fall off your chair and make a big scene about it.

97. If you’re playing a really boring game, make a big deal if you win.

98. Glue all their scissors together.

99. Make paperclip jewellery. E.g. necklaces, earrings etc…

100. Pull out one strand of someone’s hair and yell “DNA!”

101. Wear a sticker or a badge that says ‘I am retarded’

102. Talk to a pen.

103. Put your hand up in a test and wait for your teacher to come over. When they whisper what’s wrong, yell “NO I WON’T SNOG YOU!”

104. Yell “LIAR!” to everything they say.

105. Smile. All the time.

106. Draw a tiny black spot on your arm. Make it bigger everyday. Look at it and say, “It’s spreading, IT’S SPREADING!”

107. When a supply teacher is taking the register, say everyone is missing. Then, if they ask who you are, say ‘Your worst Nightmare’

108. When you know the answer, bounce up and down a go ” OOOHH I KNOW THIS”

109. When a teacher calls on you say, ” I forgot”

110. If you have to blow your nose in class, blow your nose to the tune of your favourite song.

111. When the teacher is not facing you, the whole class moves their desk forward towards the teacher

112. Hum throughout the lesson, but make sure you do not get caught!

113. When a teacher asks you a question… Reply “ERM, COMPUTER SAYS NOOO!!!”

114. When the teacher makes a statement, stand boldly and shout “I OBJECT”

115. REPEAT the last word the teacher says but say it much louder!

116. While the teachers back is turned, everyone swaps seats!

117. If you are sure you haven’t passed the test, write your phone number at the end with a heart!

118. When you hear a Police car siren from outside, run around screaming in the classroom shouting “Oh no, they’re here. Oh my god. Shit. Shit. Shit. What do I do? Miss/Sir you have to help me! Oh god. They must have found the body! HELP!”

119. When it’s your turn to answer a question… Shout “NEXT!”

120.When you come in late and the teacher asks why you’re late, say “A wizard is never late. nor is he early. he arrives precisely when he means to.”

121. When someone whispers a question, loudly say “STOP CAUSING A SCENE!”

122.Every time the teacher tells you something, suspicously ask “Really?”

-http://thatssosamantha.blogspot.com/ my BELOVED Passerby :D

heheheh this post was saved as draft with images only, on 6/7.

HAHAHAHA ohmygosh I just realised I only uploaded photos on 6th July, I didn't type anything!!!

7th June- Indian Zichar day with the Nanas and Sj!
I remembered it was another term which dajie taught me but I FORGOT ): ): ):

THERE'S HORLICKS DINOSAUR OMGOMGOMGOMGOG

COOOOL, we ordered too many stuffs- Roti pratas[a hell lot], Roti john, FRIED ICECREAM, etc etc. SJ and I fought like madness over I forgot what, and Wena took the video of us. I'm so going to get it from her. :D It was crazyass funny and I remembered Wena and Alina laughing like forever. HAHAHA

28th May- Party world with Murphy Jiahao Regina and Ade!

In the end I ended up comfortably wearing Ade's shirt and shorts. hehehehehe
Henneyway was super super out of tune HAHAHAHAHA and I remember Jiahao sings damn funny too! Murph reg and ade were awesome gooood, like concert like that. HAHAHAHA. Right afterwards we went to Ade's place because it's so near Northpoint, while on the way we bought Monopoly Deal. I learnt it that day- WOAHHH I never knew it existed and the moment I learnt it, I got hooked onto it. I can play it again and again just to make someone[Jiahao, actually] bankrupt, it feels awesome HAHAHA I think that's sadisticcc

15th May- oops kinda jumbled up the timeline, hehehehe. Went to Serangoon Gardens Country Club to bowl with same old [Murphy Jiahao Ade Regina Kerliang] and ended up at Regina's place afterwards, if I'm not wrong


I LOVE HER HOUSE'S STRUCTURE IT'S AWESOMEEEE, taken from the dining room, we were on the first floor. I took this photo upwards, this is our ceiling, cool or cool!

Trying to fix wifi HAHAHA I cant believe they dont know how to fix it when they have that. hehehe

Taking photos while Murphy and Jiahao were playing wifi. HAHAHAHA super slack that day. I just learnt the malay term- LEPAK :D :D :D

"ehhhh~ just lepak one corner kay~" HAHAHAHAHAHA

Random photos

The day before I cut my hair!



My last Lasik appointment. This box was empty when I first came for my Lasik surgery. Now it's MORE THAN HALF FULL OMGGGGG I'm so proud I dropped one box toooooooooo!!! I can simply imagine how elated these people were with newborn eyes , just like me they felt so happy, for that moment I just felt like donating something because long lost eyesight has returned... blahblah you know HAHAHA yup you would just feel like GIVING. ^^ And that feeling is more than just THANKFUL. (: After regaining my eyesight from 1100 degrees EACH EYE [yeah each eye ohmygosh how did I survive], it feels like HEAVEN.. simply feels blissful and flower petals falling everywhere. HAHAHAHAHHAA
It's like, my dream was to wake up one day and to see my bedroom clearly. Instead of forcing my eyes to squinch when they cant even see, just to find my pair of glasses and sometimes I would accidentally drop them on the floor in which thereafter I would spend fifteen mins blindly moving my hands on the floor hoping to feel the glasses. ohmy ): I would love to see my uniform which I hang behind my door as a set of UNIFORM instead of some figurine that might look suggestively scary.

I'M HAPPY. (: (: (: (: (: (:

NO MORE dry contacts problem, infections, worrying about using up contacts before 6 months, wouldnt need to bring contacts lens solutions and case and extras while heading out, wouldnt have to worry about being unaided while swimming, wouldnt have to worry about losing one of them while outside and being dangerously blind for the other half of the day. Wouldnt have to look damn nerdy with my thick pair of glasses, esp during chalets and sleepovers.

MOP and Epichouse outing. :D :D :D :D Zack Bel Minyi Patrick Roy





SUPER SHIOK OMG I KEEP WINNING IN THE RUNNING CONTEST HEHEHEHEHE I LOVE PLAYING RAVING RABBITS ;D :D


Food was DAMN SHIOK












I LOVE THE PHOTOS, VERY VERY MUCH ^^. After raving rabbits we went to Geylang at 11pm [ooooo at that timing?! hehee] to have supper at some Hong Kong Kopitiam. Woah the dim sum was heavenly. Thanks to Roy's recommendation!!! :D

3rd June - Neoprints with Bel!









Super like EVERYTHING :D
okay that's about it, I'm so sleepy now!! Will update those outdated stuffs soon.Hehehehe the alliteration was funny, tickles my tummy heheheheheheahblahblahblahyawns

ANYWAY! HELLO THA!! WHERE'D YOU GOOO YOU PB!

I like this very much ^^

I LOVE THE LAST SENTENCE.

"Kay I'm pretty excited. Please don't let me down."

She's awesome.

I WANT TO BLOG BUT I'M SO BUSY AHHHHHHHHHHH

I miss my hair.

And I've made up my mind, sj I'm going to get this top. I've been considering it since two months back. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

I'm that poor!

Today I left office pretty late due to some rush orders, and had to duplicate a new key for the staff people. Realised that training was cancelled because the sun/weather was too hot and everyone trained in the morning already, legs were breaking or something like that. Hence found dyna at Suntec, completed the whole BishiBashi Champion game OMG SO FUN HAHAHAHAA and watched Daniel do his Parapara [forced]with Alina HAHAHAHAHAA he literally shook the machine when he jumped LMAO! Completed PhotoHunt as well, and afterwards we cabbed to Aljunied CC to watch super exciting girls' matches, woah they are really awesome ttmttmttm. Was so inspired and all, everyone was so hungry for the ball. OOO IT RHYMES, AHHAHAHA! I felt like playing while watching. The best girl locally is really DAMN GOOD. And oh Number 7 in 3rd Team is super super cute. Cabbed home afterwards, reached home at eleven, on dee dot. AHHAHAHA

So inspired to play now. (:

I'm still updating past posts, upload sometime soon :D