dramamama.

Happy Anniversary, Love. This is my part on how I felt when I first knew you.

2011-12-21T03:27:00.001+08:00

{Edited}
Baby, we have gone a long way.

We started out as very different people. I had short, half blonde hair. You had long hair. And look at us, now.

It all started out when I decided to crash your condo with my friend. I was in a very painful mode, a despaired soul, heart broken and with lack of faith in this world. I was a girl who was honestly love-impaired, I hated anyone and I cried all the time, on buses, when I listened to love songs... anywhere that reminded me of good times that I have had. Happy times which used to belong to me, that were robbed by a heartless someone.

Meeting you somewhere so private wasn't anything I have imagined in meeting a soul mate. Staring away from you in the jacuzzi felt like ages when you and your friend were trying to strike a conversation. Irritation got in the way and I've decided to turn around, face and patronise you guys. I wanted to end the conversation asap. I remembered you standing beside me, waiting for us to pack our bags and fetching us to the restroom. You talked to me. Afterwards you guys wanted our numbers and facebook. Instead of giving generously, I disappeared into the restroom and we never contact ever since... till two weeks later. [by the way. I cant believe you said you almost broke your arm doing weight lifting in the gym when you first saw me walked past. Crush at first sight, you said. >:D HAHAHAHAHA!!! So funnyyyy]

Two weeks later, you got hold of my facebook from my friend, and added me. YOU DIDN'T TALK TO ME! You just left it there, like a dot dot dot. You were shy, you said. That was cute baby. (:

Then two more weeks past, you decided to chat with me. That was the night it started going smoothly. You asked on fb if we could talk on msn. I felt curious about you so I accepted. We talked while I was playing Tetris [sorry baby! Tetris was my fav game and you were 2nd in priority then] and I replied you once in a while. You suddenly talked to me about you smoking and d***ging. That did catch my attention. I was trying to be cool about it, so I simply typed, " Sorry, I dont hang out with smokers." Somehow that sentence gave you the motivation to quit and I immediately honourably became the motivation for you to quit. The giving number part was hilarious. I gave you like my hp number except the last digit. Apparently I felt naughty [it was like 3am?] and told you to try calling with all options. It was so funny, you called from 1 to 0, and mine was 0. -.- You said there was this banglah who picked up last at night. HAHHAHAA

Our first date, watching movie and Timbre. I knew you were shy, I was more daring and I purposely moved my head closer to you, during the movie, I felt you were stunned, somehow. Because you were shy. It was amusing and I kept moving closer just because I know you will move away. :D As for Timbre afterwards, I remembered you telling me that this is the first time you actually went on a proper date with a girl. I even dedicated a thank you message at Timbre hahahaha! For treating me as a birthday gift. You put your arm around me. I was a little tipsy, I allowed. But when you tried holding my hand, I pulled away.

We talked on the phone every night. I didn't know what to feel. I have always felt insecure ever since my breakup, that's why I didn't know what to do. Because I felt good when you're around, when I hear your voice on the phone. When you were telling funny things and laughing at everything that I said. Even when I said meh meh chi chao, you can laugh like nobody's business. For the hundredth time, you said I was cute. Repeatedly. Anything that I say was cute to you.

As days passed, I felt really good towards you, and it ironically pulled me away from you. I've been on so many dates with others, and yet I felt nothing. With you, with your contagious laughter, with your ridiculous metal head, I felt really comfortable. Insecurity set in.

Although I felt like I had to repel from you, I went out with you because I couldn't help it. Scape became our favourite hangout place.
Our Lao Di Fang. On our second or third date[i forgot], we sat down and I poured out everything from your bag. We talked about everything and anything, and suddenly as I looked up I realised your face was so close to mine. Our cheeks brushed, and instantly I felt damn shy. I was blushing so hard and everything became slow motioned. We didnt kiss. Because I didnt move. But it left a huge impression in my mind, till now. That infatuation I've had, that instant.

The next day, we went back. This time coincidentally, I brought vodka and hence we bought coke to go along with it. "Drink to our sad lives", I remembered saying. Hahaha that was because I was still hurt and haunted by my past. That was the day we kissed. Somehow, somehow I was holding my phone on camera mode, and somehow we stayed there. Lips brushed, hearts bursting out in flames, imaginary fireworks blasted in our heads.

Actually that was where the [our]pain started. I rejected you for a gazillion times. I remembered you crying so hard. I teared too. I didn't want a relationship because I believed that you will only like me for a while. I was affirmative that your infatuation would go away. It was just a crush. I wouldn't be cute to you like maybe, 1 year down the road. I have been very badly hurt. I could not bring myself to trust anyone to love me for long. Besides, I wasn't looking for short relationships. I want a long, and stable relationship, that will last throughout marriage as well. I was so sure that you'll probably cheat on me like my ex, after getting tired of me. Guys get tired of the same girl in time, so I thought. It's a vicious cycle, I've been there. Guys, woah they like you, then crush on you, infatuated, love kissing you, love hanging out with you, being oh so romantic, doing all the sweetest things, then bang, disagreements, disputes, characters and habits clashed, losing interest, not interested, cheating on you, lying, other girls looked better now, regretted being with the same girl, wanted to see the world, chasing another. Leaving you alone. Heartbroken, promises broken in the process.

You were so upset about my rejections, you even wanted to listen to me falling asleep for nights, you would be so stressed up thinking about my rejections overnight... I'm so sorry baby. I feel awful now, thinking about what I have done to you.

Anyway, as weeks and months passed, I accepted your question once more, in the cab. Ah that was so memorable. ((:

And our adventures continued together. We explored so many foodies and places together. Now I want to travel the world with you.

Okay for today...

There wasn't anything special today other than x'mas shopping with me, you didnt do anything extraordinary or romantic, but the truth is out there. You can make me happy and you can make me sad. You affect my emotions the most. I cannot breathe when you're not there. I don't want anyone else except you. My mind is all about you. Memories of you and I throughout the year flood my mind, like forever.

I eat, drink and sleep you. I cannot imagine a life without you anymore. I used to think that I can live alone without guys, I used to begin thinking that girls are a better choice. You made me chose you. You proved to me that there is still someone out there who genuinely loves me, for as long as it can be. Your love for me has proven to be simple. Although our age dont match, but we are compatible mentally. You listen, you care and you cheer me up. You are incredibly patient with me. You get mad sometimes but you simply cannot get mad for long...because it's me, hehee.

Recently we went to ArtScience Museum to see Titanic:

Henderson Wave Bridge with a little moon eclipse surprise:

And we went to Universal Studios SG to try the Transformer Ride:

Today, we went shopping and it felt just like a married couple event... we shopped for each other's clothes, we bought our friend's present, went around trying on new clothes, getting approval from both sides. Everything felt great.

By the way baby, I just read an article from somewhere else, and I can totally apprehend what she wrote:

"Everytime I turn to look at him, he'd already be looking at me. When we dine, he would insist on not sitting opposite me but beside me, because he wants to be close to me. During the rare moments where I look at him and he isn't looking at me, he'd be smiling vaguely to himself, apparently very pleased with dunno what."

That is what I felt with you too. And she also mentioned that guys with 10/10 eligibility doesn't mean that they will give you their 100%, they will probably give you only 70-80%. Find a guy with 7-8 points and he will give you a hundred percent. She also brought up the fact that if girls really want a real, stable relationship (commitment based), girls should turn back to the very guy who is seriously infatuated with you, the one who would give you his all, and is ready to spend the rest of his life with you, instead of bad boys, or guys with the eligibility every girl pursue. I don't need a guy who looks super awesome. I don't need guys with money. I just hope to spend my life amongst adventures with someone who truly cares for me, and makes me happy. Someone who loves me for who I am. And that's why, I've never regretted dating you.

And hence I conclude, that I would love to share with you the crazy world that I am in; I would love to share with you the kaleidoscope that I see the world in; I would love to let you in all my secrets in my past, and share my laughter and joy, with you. There is no holding back, from that fateful day you asked me to be your girlfriend.

I dont exactly know why am I ranting my day away... I need an outlet I guess. Nobody reads this anyway. (:

2011-10-18T00:48:00.000+08:00

I need a getaway... I seriously cant wait for my birthday, I want a chalet, I want more attention. (honestly)

Woke up at six am to prepare for school, the traffic was bad yet again (not surprising), attended lecture on my own and gave the wrong answer VERBALLY during Balwant's lecture. Hahahaha I was so wrong. But whatever, I dont really care about what others say now. Lecture ended 15 mins earlier, headed down to photocopying room to find Sj. It's funny how a photocopying standing-up session can turn to a stress-reliever chat outlet. I remember pressing the scanning button every now and then to scare Sj HAHAHA. Her test is coming up, all the best okay! REVISE NOW and no regrets, guilt can kill and swallow you whole.

Dajie was late but we were still trying to finish printing all of Sj's textbook. Ate at some foodcourt in school I never knew existed until today LOL. Talked about everything under the sun, laughed at all sorts of stories we compiled in our recent memories. I was extremely, extremely happy when Sj commented that I lost weight, I feel like at least I accomplished one of my goals this month, which is to eat healthy, exercise often and tone up my body. Besides sleep deprivation and my mind completely occupied with a shocking long list of to-dos, I feel better, comfortable and more confident.

Anyhoo, we went to some uncomfortable student lounge and sat on the carpet floor, revising till Dajie's lesson which starts at 3:30pm. Apparently, we realised that we couldn't even attempt the first few math questions in Dj's math assignment. I'm so sorry I cant help Dj. WHAT A JOKE. Jokers ah all. ): Hell, which adds on to the constant annoying rant in my head to BUCK UP LA... Afterwards Sj and I left school but before that we bought "Authentic Hokkaido Icecream" which tasted like Kings, or rather more diluted than Kings- Queens? LMAO. We sneaked the ice cream (mine in cup, Sj's in CONE HAHAHA) on bus 61 towards Bukit Batok. Hehehe boy, those stares from NP students. I was pretty paranoid thinking that they would tell on us. In fact we planned to split the fine 50-50 if we were caught. Then we went on to the Agnes B. Bag topic. HAHAHAHA one fine means one Agnes B. bag. So if I'm not caught, will I get my bag? Hehe funny ah. FUNNY AH. :<

Reached home, bathed and immediately, I say IMMEDIATELY, dozed off. When I woke up at 9pm, I thought it was time for morning class. -.- hahahahahaa

Skipped dinner(my family doesnt have dinner, slimming method for mum dad), drank dad's fruit juice. I think it consisted of 4 oranges, 3 apples. No honey, no sugar, no filtering of fibre. It's so healthy and I'm glad my dad does this EVERYDAY.

Did some leg raise, spent time with mum and dad watching 10 o'clock variety taiwan show, and back to my desk.

I miss the Boyfie. We didnt talk at all the whole day. He needs sleep/rest/naps way more than I do... Well he'll be out by tomorrow 9am! Happy much. :D Need more time to play now. Now now where or when can I have my fun back in my life.

11/10/11 last Tuesday, went to find Shah because he was going to have ligament operation the next day. Wasnt my first time, but didnt like it that much. Coughed and was too tired to go for that one hour tutorial the next day hahahaha sorry myself.

I really need a solution.

2011-09-20T23:43:00.002+08:00

I went google and

"9 Things That Keep Every Relationship

Going Strong Every Day"

1) Schedule "Me" Time

Every r/s needs a "no-r/s time". You work all day, so when you get home you feel like you have to be with your partner for the rest of the night. No good. Let him work in the garage or play video games while you do yoga or watch the show that you buffered two weeks ago. Have an hour of "me" time everyday.

2) Keep the Guffaws Coming

Laughing is a key to a r/s. Even when you're all stressed up or frustrated, try to find something to giggle about. It'll always pull you out of a funk.

3) Steal a Midday Hello

"No matter how busy our lives are, my gf and I check in when we have a quick moment. It's quick but says so much about being in each other's corner and making each other a priority."

4) Let The Compliments Flow

"...Even if it seems like something insignificant. We're in the midst of home improvement, and complimenting my man's dry-walling or sanding skills helps alleviate the strain of remodelling and makes him happy"

5) Show Some Love

"Hands down, no questions asked: a kiss and a hug every single day. Touching is so important!"

6) Get down to Business

"Have sex. It's a good stress reliever, and everybody's happy."

7) Speak Your Mind

"I feel that our relationship is strong because we really respect each other enough to be honest and up front in our communication at all times."

8) Say Those Three Little Words

It is so simple, but tell your partner "I love you" everyday, and mean it."

9) End The Day Together

"We try to go to bed around the same time at night and lie there for about five to ten mins and just chat about anything and everything.That time when nothing is going on becomes something that we really look forward to."

I need it and I dont know, I hope I can feel better.

27

2010-11-21T14:22:00.002+08:00

Six more days!!! (Y)

Am but drenched in vanilla twilight

2010-11-18T23:23:00.007+08:00

Today was the most stressful, mind-exploding day.

I've never felt this bad, not even when I was studying because I owe these people my promises, my word. Growing up with the mentality of hating to disppoint others is slowly eating me up.

I have no one to tell this to, I feel stuck in that loser atmosphere. I couldnt bring it up to my darling designer, HT and Pat because they were packed with their complaints, I was supposed to hear them out. Luckily MS was there to hear me out for a while. Night ball streetmatches definitely healed me temporary, hanging out with these people chilled me like a cup of Mac ice milo, for two hours.

This morning while I was travelling, I listened to the radio, and this song popped up. It was that nostalgic moment when you'll just stare out from the bus, looking at literally nothing but flashes - right in front of you, and you'll feel that joy all over again, and afterwards the instinctive pain accompanied with tears welling up all over again, too. It's like a cycle, a habit. But I'm breaking out of this like how Michael Scofield breaks out of Foxriver and Sona prisons. ^^

Anyway Prison Break is so awesome, finished every season. You wouldnt believe it but the part that I cried like shit was when Bellick sacrificed himself. It's so freaking sad. I didnt cry that much when Sara supposedly got her head chopped off. hahahahahaha

Prison Break is nicer than Lost. But Lost's ending taught me a hell lot like a lit book with a deeper understanding of the human life.

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

Merely, and nothing more;

The context of the song has changed.

It doesnt matter who sang this song to me.

It all boils down to the application of wordplay. (:

I wish I can do something about it.

2010-11-18T00:45:00.009+08:00

Gosh, the truth is I feel damn sad right now because the line between us is just too clear. I need you, right back when I first knew you. Pardon me for stepping across that boundary, it has been exasperating.

I think you dont need me at all. I dont even think that you'll ever, see this.

Even if you do see this, you wont think that I'm referring to you.

Imma rocketeer

2010-11-16T11:12:00.007+08:00

Hohoho I've been tagged. I would like to try it but I dont want to post it on fb AHAHAHAHAHAHA

Once you've been tagged, you are suppose to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. Tagged means "I'm interested in knowing what are your 100 truths". (To do this, go to "notes" under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app then click publish.) And if you don't fill this out and post it within a day of seeing it, you will turn into a maroon pineapple.

required.
POSTING THIS AS: 100 truths.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Water

2. Last phone call: My darling designer

3. Last text message: Sorry you are? Haha sorry I accidentally cleared your number.

4. Last song you listened to: Rocketeer

5. Last time you cried: Few hours ago

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Got back with someone you've broken up with: Yes

7. Been cheated on: Yes

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No

9. Lost someone special: Yes

10. Been depressed: Yes

11. Been drunk and threw up: No, never threw up

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. ALL COLOURS

13. especially

14. Electric BLUE

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

15. Made a new friend: PLENTY!!!

16. Fallen out of love: Yes

17. Laughed until you cried: YES HAHAHAHAHA

18. Met someone who changed you: Yes

19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes, totally.

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Everybody talks about everybody

21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list: Yes

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 90%

23. How many kids do you want?: 2 [twins!!!!!! XD]

24. Do you have any pets?: I had two fighting fish, one called nehneh, one called pok. Afterwards SJ and I had two terrapins, one called chilli zwilala and the other pepper bomchacha.

25. Do you want to change your name: No, I love my name. It suits me.

26. What did you do for your last birthday: I was kidnapped, refer to blog post. :D And after the best celebration in the world, someone screwed it up badly. Cried but someone else made it worthwhile at night 11pm. (:

27. What time did you wake up today?: 0745am. *inserts sian face*

28. What were you doing at midnight last night?: Texting and holding on to my phone while lying on my bed in the dark.

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: MY BIRTHDAY!!!! HAHAHAHAHA

30. Last time you saw your Mother: This morning!

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?: Too many stuffs, some doable, some impossible.

32. What are you listening to right now: 987fm

34. Who is getting on your nerves now? customers

35. Most visited webpage: Facebook

36.Whats your real name: Wong Joey.

37. Nicknames: Jo & Toddler Jo. HAHAHAHAHAHA

39. Zodiac sign: Sagittarius

40. Male or female?: Female

41. Primary School?: Qihua Primary School

42. Secondary School?: Presbyterian High School

43. High school/college?: Innova Junior College

44. Hair color: Apricot with a tinge of rebellious streak

45. Long or short: Short.. ):

46. Height: 153cm. HAHAHAHA I KNOW. i know.

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Yes

48: What do you like about yourself? Almost everything, I try to.

49. Piercings: 3

50: Tattoos: Maybe soon

51. Righty or lefty: Righty but a little lefty too

FIRST:

52. First surgery: Lasik

53. First piercing: Primary 2

54. First best friend: Kindergarten ^^ t'was a boyyyy

55. First sport you joined: Table tennis. That changed my life.

56. First vacation: Sentosa

57. First pair of trainers: Since young?

RIGHT NOW:

58. Eating: Mos Fish Burger!!!

59. Drinking: Ice Milk Tea

60. I'm about to: Go back to work.

61. Listening to: You gonna miss me when I'm gone

62. Waiting for: You

63. I'm feeling: A little impatient..

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?: Yes

65. Get married?: Yes

66. Career: Public Relations, Marketing, Language, Literature, Stockbroker

67. Lips or eyes: Eyes and Lips

68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs and kisses

69. Shorter or taller: Taller

70. Older or Younger: Older

71. Romantic or spontaneous: As spontaneous as me, romantic like hell.

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Everything would appear nice to me.

73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive and perhaps not as loud as me.

74. Hook-up or relationship: No hookups for life.

HAVE YOU:

75. Kissed a stranger: Nope

76. Drank hard Liquor: Yes

77. Lost glasses/contacts: Lost too many times that I have to have Lasik

78. Sex on first date: NO

79. Broken someone's heart: Yes

80. Been arrested: No.

81. Turned someone down: Yes

82. Cried when someone died: Definitely. Of course

83. Fallen for a friend: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: Yes, I have to believe in myself before anyone else can believe in me. That's what I tell myself.

85. Love at first sight: Yes

86. Heaven: Yes

87. Santa Claus: Used to.

88. Kiss on the first date: Perhaps

89. Angels: Yes. Guardian angels, yes.

90. God: Yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

91. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No.

92. Did you sing today?: YES!

93. Did something illegal?: Perhaps.

94. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 15

95. The moment you would choose to relive?: Too many moments, answer might turn out as essay.

96. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yes. Terrified.

97. When was the last time you lied?: A few months ago.

98. Are you usually late, early or right on time?: A little late hehehe.

99. Would you give your life to save someone else's?: For the ones I love and cherish, yes.

100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths?: NO! (:

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2010-11-12T23:50:00.001+08:00

I feel so happy today!!!!

and act like

2010-11-11T00:51:00.007+08:00

Samantha ت says (12:46 AM):

so what do you wanna hear from me? (:

allhailthedramamama joeywong says (12:47 AM):

HAHAHAHAA i wanna know what you think about me

Samantha ت says (12:48 AM):

i think you're nice

a little too nice

but

too trusting

idk how to put it, but i wonder how do you ever find strength to hold on to things

Maybe I dont really hold on to things, maybe I am just naive enough to have the patience and appreciation, foolishly waiting for miracles to happen, waiting for the other to initiate.

o.o

2010-11-09T23:27:00.004+08:00

I saw this somewhere in fb and when I read it, it was likeeeeee..., HAHAHAHA seriously I bet this must be written by a girl?! So many steps and so many demands. So scary. HAHAAH maybe she meant for her guy to read it that's why she posted it. But it's kinda nice because if it's jotted down from a guy's notes, that's freaking sweet. Probably could get any girl he wants. HAHAHAHAHAAH WTH.

1. Touch her waist.

2. Actually talk to her.

3. Share secrets with her.

4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts

5. Kiss her slowly.

6. Hug her.

7. Hold her.

8. Laugh with her.

9. Invite her everywhere.

10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

11. Smile with her.

12. Take pictures with her.

13. Pull her onto your lap.

14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.

15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.

17. Kiss her unexpectedly.

18. Hug her from behind around the waist.

19. Tell her she's beautiful.

20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.

22. Tell her she's your everything - only if you mean it.

23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.

25. Kiss her in front of other girls you know

26. Dont lie to her

27. Dont cheat on her

28. Take her where she wants

29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you miss her.

30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you.

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold you too.

32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.

33. Kiss her on the cheek (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).

34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Dont ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.

36. When people diss her, stand up for her.

37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.

38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.

39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.

40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible

41. Call or text her every night to wish her sweet dreams

42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.

43. Take her for long walks at night.

44. Always remind her how much you love her.

45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.

46. Rub her back--feels good

47. Give her your coat if she's cold--thats always cute

48. Write letters on her back with your finger--feels good

49. Let her sit on your lap

50. Poke her lightly

51. Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.

52. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionately and gently.

53. Surprisingly sneak up to her and hug her from behind

54. Kiss her in the rain.

55. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.

56. Slow dance with no music

57. Don't ignore her or be nervous around her--everything is going to be okay.

2010-11-08T00:57:00.005+08:00

Sometimes it's really hard to muster that courage one used to have, because one has been disappointed too many times. Gotta keep telling myself to live like I'm dying. And stop questioning where's my s.h. now. And halt the relentless search for my guardian angel., I wish I could laugh like how I used to laugh.

2010-11-06T02:26:00.003+08:00

walls apart
I heard your heart beating

roads apart
I wonder if you're thinking

skin against the icy concrete wall
yearning for that heartbeat
chilly
but warm,
listening to the foreign thumpings;

it's hypnotizing

running across the roads
passing frantic cars
thrashing my way out of the shell
to track your thoughts;

it's magnetizing

leap of Faith
once told to me

zillions rehearsals
cure boredom
dreams of us
cure insomnia

internal monologue

2010-11-05T00:12:00.004+08:00

hmmmm I've thought for very long, and what I want for my birthday is a really awesome celebration with all my great friends and family as usual, and a camera. and maybe that swatch watch. ^^

I wanna make it a chalet, but I dont know how to cater to all the different types and groups of friends. That's the worry.

Another worry would be zee budget.

feel your heartbeat

2010-10-31T01:14:00.007+08:00

wooooooooooooooooooooooooo my pimples are like your dimplesssss hehehehehehe

happenings happenings, updating about my whole month soony

stop stealing my heart away

2010-10-30T12:36:00.000+08:00

Kissing is healthy. Bananas are good for cramps. Chicken soup actually makes you feel better. Its true. Guys DO insult you if they like you. Having someone rub your tummy when it hurts actually helps it. 89% of guys would want girls to make the first move. Girls love it when Guys hug them from behind the waist. Girls love it when guys let them wear their hoodie or jacket. Guys think its cute when you mess up. A true friend will NEVER judge you.There is only one guy who is worth your tears. If you have a dream about someone, then that person went to sleep thinking about you.More guys than girls will read this.♥

2010-10-26T11:07:00.001+08:00

There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.
~Ella Wheeler Wilcox

when you're feeling down;

2010-10-25T00:42:00.008+08:00

- sit somewhere and talk all nonsense and laugh our asses off

-gym and swim every thursday with someone you can confide with, crash pools with, remove moles with, do all the craziest things you wanna do with;

-hug someone who you can hug forever and you know she'll be right outside your doorstep when you need it; "if you want sunday i pei you??" explains all.

-eat lots and lots of chocolate. eat lots and lots of chocolate. I repeat, eat lots and lots of chocolate. explains my gymming and swimming above. eat it with the people you laugh with. accept the camwhoring part when they flash their cameras heheehheheheehehe. ^^ hang out with people you gossip with. they might be older, but they can advise me better too, with lots of care and tender love.

-hang out with the people you've been with for years, who has never ever offended you with words like "short", "fat", "ugly". in fact it tickles you knowing that they meant the exact opposite. ^^

-get pranked and punked and laughed at by people who mattered. those who will stand up for you.

-dress up, wear comfortably, read, watch dramas, laugh with mum dad bro and granny.

-unexpectedly receiving a text from someone you've been waiting for.

I've learnt many ways to cheer up. (:

2010-10-23T00:37:00.000+08:00

I wanna go back

2010-10-17T01:32:00.005+08:00

All I can type now is

I have been damn sad all this while, and I need things to get my mind off things. But I dont know who can help?

disbelieving but believing

2010-10-14T00:21:00.011+08:00

Hehehe I used to be very skeptical when it comes to fortune telling blahs and stuffs, but when I first read horoscope when I was younger, I was so shocked because it was like, not exactly all-perfect descriptions but the keywords were there. I wonder if all Sagis are like me? It will be all too perfect isn't it. I find it hard to believe but seriously, the description of Sagi suits me! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA I'm too retardeddd but here goes :

Inquisitive and energetic, the Sagittarius is the traveler of the Zodiac. Their philosophical, broad-minded approach to life motivates them to wander far and wide in the search for the meaning of life. Extroverted, optimistic, and enthusiastic, it can be almost impossible to keep the Sagittarius down. They love change. In fact, change is essential for this sign to feel their best.

Whether it's stimulating conversation or a hike through the mountains, you can expect this sign to be surrounded by friends. Sagittarians are a ton of fun and downright wacky at times. They love to laugh and to get everyone around them going. Sagittarians make friends from around the globe, enjoying the various takes on life and culture. They're generous and are not ones to hold a grudge. Anyone who can sit a spell and talk about the deeper things in life will suit a Sagittarius just fine. They make friends easily and remain steadfast through the years. When it comes to family, the Sagittarius is dedicated and willing to do just about anything. Freedom and independence are extremely important for this outgoing sign. Providing these traits aren't infringed upon, all relationships go well.

Strengths:

Great sense of humor, idealistic, generous. [TOTALLY AGREE ^^]

Weaknesses:

Will say anything no matter how undiplomatic, promises more than can deliver, can be impatient to the point of rudeness. [yup. I can be rude sometimes when I'm super annoyed.]

Charismatic marks:

Open and interested.

Generally tall, strong legs. [<--- O.O!!]

Clothes for comfort, not style.

Women act in a "tomboy" manner.

Likes:

Travel, being outdoors, freedom, philosophy.[freedom ftw too. Something I've always yearned for since I could count. And I love to go out since p1, even to Macs.]

Dislikes:

Details, being constrained, off-the-wall theories, clingy people. [don't like details. I dont like listening to off-the-wall theories too, it's a waste of my time. And I hate being contrained, seriously.]

Best environment:

Outside, on the move [agree]

Totally agree with everything above. Except the fact the my legs are TALL. Strong yes but tall no. zz.

I'm a defected Sagi. HAHAHAHA

BoA(보아)_Energetic_MusicVideo

2010-10-07T20:51:00.000+08:00

you toooooot

2010-10-04T00:21:00.004+08:00

I want to upload so many so many photos here, but firstly I WANNA SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU TOOOT!!!!!! THE CLOSEST GIRL I'VE EVER BEEN WITHHHHHHH, BATHE together SLEEP together, CRY together like seriously. And the best part is I can totally kiss you without feeling weird! HAHAHAHAHA LOVE YOU!!!!

2010-10-03T23:52:00.000+08:00

that's really really encouraging! (: (: x 10000000000

2010-10-01T00:08:00.001+08:00

I miss you.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2010-09-27T18:24:00.000+08:00

It got crowded in heaven so, for one day and one day only, it was decided to only accept people who had really bad day on the day they died.St. Peter was standing at the pearly gates and said to the first man, "Tell me about the day you died." The man said, "Oh, it was awful. I was sure my wife was having an affair, so I came home early to catch her with him.

I searched all over the apartment but couldn't find him anywhere. So I went out onto the balcony, we live on the 25th floor, and found this man hanging over the edge by his fingertips. I went inside, got a hammer, and started hitting his hands. He fell, but landed in some bushes. So, I got the refrigerator and pushed it over the balcony and it crushed him.

The strain of the act gave me a heart attack, of which I died from."

St. Peter couldn't deny that this was a pretty bad day, and since it was a crime of passion, he let the man in. He then asked the next man in line about the day he died. "Well, sir, it was awful," said the second man.

"I was doing aerobics on the balcony of my 26th floor apartment when I twisted my ankle and slipped over the edge. I managed to grab the balcony of the apartment below, but some maniac came out and started pounding on my fingers with a hammer. Luckily I landed in some bushes. But, then the guy dropped a refrigerator on me!"

St. Peter chuckled, let him into heaven and decided he could really start to enjoy this job. "Tell me about the day you died?” he said to the third man in line. "OK, picture this; I'm naked, hiding inside a refrigerator...."

2010-09-26T13:05:00.004+08:00

Saw this somewhere and I felt it was really touching, so I used my comp to translate this into english. [ I suck at reading chinese hehehe]The translation might turn out funny but you have a rough idea eh :D :

When I was 24 years old, we are together, hand in hand we see each other's families.

If and when I was 26 years old, we are still together, I will roll up my hair to stay for a long time, be your most beautiful bride.

If and when I am 28 years old, we are still together, and we look forward to working together to meet that arrival of new life that joins our small family.

If and when I am 29 years old, we are still together, we will have careful management of our home, listening to our baby's tender voice every day calling us, "Daddy," "Mummy".

If and when I am 33 years old, we are still together, no matter how people come around the sub-points, we will have come to a firm stand through the pain of those 3 years, 7 year itch. We still continue our happiness.

If and when I am 40 years old, we are still together. Even if the initial excitement the reality of life has been grinding away, things go flat, we will still be chasing each other's eyes and each other's shadow, a laugh will feel at ease.

If and when I am 50 years old, we are still together. The children leave us to pursue their happiness, though we will miss the baby, I still have you by my side, hand in hand for a walk every evening.

If and when I'm 60 years old, we are still together. We will have all the rest, with a lot of time with each other, do things that we wanted to do which we never had the time for.

If and when I am 70 years old, we are still together, we will have kids around that call us "Grandpa", "Grandma," and you will still take care of me like a child.

If and when I am 76 years old, we are still together, we will know who to notify and invite all to join our golden wedding anniversary, to share our happiness.

If and when I'm 80 years old, we are still together, we will lay on the rocking chair sitting under the sun every day, although we do not know when will life stops, we are no longer afraid of death; enjoying life every day, because we have each other's company.

If and when I reach the last day of life, I want to be around you, so please allow me to be selfish and leave this world, or if you cannot take it anymore, I would like to accompany you too... because without you the world is cold, so, my dear, if that day comes, please let me go first, or take me with you;

Because, I cannot handle the happiness once belonged to two people, alone.

2010-09-26T01:25:00.000+08:00

heheheheeheheeheheee dont know why I love this picture so much.

smth encouraging appeared in the inbox;

2010-09-26T00:40:00.006+08:00

just as I was about to give up.

Hi Epichouse Staff,

Just wanted to say thanks for the job well done with the printing of the shirt
design.
I was really impressed by affordable pricing and the efficiency of the shirt
printing despite the relatively short notice.
I would like to especially thank Zack for being so patient with me and the
design. You were really helpful with the editing of the design and really
understanding with all the minor changes that I wanted to make.
I would also like to thank Joey for being so kind and friendly when we were
discussing the shirt order.
So yeah, thanks for being such awesome and friendly designers and sales people!

The process of finding a company and ordering prints seemed like a reallydaunting task at first, considering that it was the first time I was ever making
such an order but you guys made things so easy.
I've recommended your company to many of my school mates and you'll definitely
be hearing from me again if I have anymore shirt designs that I need printing.

Regards,
Jaime.

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Hello Joey! This is Timothy. I have received shirts in more than satisfactory conditions. I have enjoyed working with you and hope to do so again in near future. Once again, thank you very much for the good service and brilliant efficiency. :D I'll certainly be knocking at your door if i require printing services in future! Thanks alot. I appreciate your friendliness. :D

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You're welcome. (:

I would love it if all my customers are like this. And I would appreciate more if there are less horny uncles around, I feel very unsafe everytime I unlock the office door in the morning.

2010-09-24T08:11:00.004+08:00

alot of mistakes, but i was thinking of taking my first piano video. pardon me for all the faults. it wasnt well done[esp the middle part it was too fast- was nervous], it is embarrassing, but i guess that there's always a first time for everything. (:

it's for my silly one by the way. ^^

Happy

2010-09-23T00:07:00.008+08:00

My blog was so dead, I wanted to type so many things here hahaha. I guess no one really reads this now, so I can reallllly type how I feel and what I think.

Mum's making me consume red wine every night at 11pm, and currently I'm super duper red, all the way till my thighs hehehe. I thought of all sorts of reasons why she does this, and only yesterday night I figured it was to make me sleep. -_-"

Perhaps to raise my level of alcohol tolerance as well, [ I think she finally considered that I have to drink ONCE in a while ^^] but either wayyy, today I was looking through my friend's photos posted on fb. It was her 19th birthday.

And it just struck me, at the end of the day, who is going to celebrate my 19th?

Who is going to make it all worthwhile, or is a special someone going to wreck my birthday again, like my 18th, or is he going to make it indelibly impressed on the memory?

Will the people I expected to celebrate my birthday, not initiate a surprise for me?

I want a million wishes to wish for that two things I have always had in mind since I started reading my first fairytale- to be happy, and to be in love. Happily.

2010-09-19T02:34:00.003+08:00

I'm happy that I love you;

I saw a shooting star on 13/9 and I wished for you. -10:50pm.

I want to be the one you love, too.

Want you to smile at me and tell me the truth.

tough love

2010-08-26T23:38:00.004+08:00

I finally broke the curfew today.

Curfew is at 11pm.

I reached home at 11:15pm tonight.

Mum, Dad,

I love you.

Mum.

I cant seem to talk to you.

You dont listen to me. Like... see? You're talking again.

We cant communicate

Do you realise that?

I think we need to do something about this.

I love you alot, you know, mi. I love this family very much.

Do you know I always yearn to hug you, always wish that...

I could tell you anything.

I always secretly wish that you could be my bestfriend.

I love to take photos with you.

I love to comment on movies with you and dad.

I love to listen to stocks and financial topics that you always bring up, times when you really treat me like an adult.

Do you know why I don't come home very much?

I don't like to come home to you, mi.

Because I hate to argue with you.

I hate to keep quiet and you just scream your top off, at me.

From the smallest things, like washing my bra.

From the most ridiculous things, like not scrubbing the toilet thrice a week.

Like me being clumsy when I wash my plates.

I dont understand,

why were you never, ever proud of me before.

I achieved funny, alternate things that you never expected me to.

You were upset.

Not that they're bad achievements.

It's just that they are not the ones you want me to achieve.

But those expectations that you have,

are choking me up.

As long as they are not academic achievements,

they are trash to you.

I'm sorry I'm not the smartest person, I'm not the girliest girl, I'm not the prettiest girl. I'm sorry that I'm not exactly a very successful teenager.

I feel stressed up when I step home everyday.

Ma, I love you.

I want to feel happy, when I'm home.

Mum I tried staying home for an entire week, remember?

You screamed at me about the smallest things.

I felt like I was trapped in a jail.

Dont you want me to be happy?

I want you to be happy too.

Ma, do you remember,

There was this day recently when I reached home super early,

I watched tv with you.

I mustered enough courage to bring up a topic so that we could talk, because it was awkward being with you.

You simply ignored me and I thought you couldnt hear;when I asked again,

you snapped at me.

Why did you do that?

Was I too noisy?

Did you need some space, anything...?

What made you snap?

Was it my existence?

Then why do you want me home so early?

If you miss me, just say it.

Say it to me.

Say that you miss me.

Say things that I've never heard in my entire life, from you.

Ma, I realise that you never, ever said you love me before.

I know you want the best for me.

I know, it sucks to be my mother.

I'm hard to manage.

I'm sorry I wasted so much of your time, your efforts, your sleep.

I aint exactly the daughter you dreamt longnights smiling when you were preggy with me.

I wasnt as excellent as the Joey Wong you think you raised me to be,

when I was crushing the crayons and crumpling the drawing papers

when I was exploring musical notes with my baby grand piano,

when I was dressing up my dolls and rolling on the sand.

Nothing interests me more than going out with you, do you know that?

My heart thumps hard everytime you look at me with those angry eyes.

I needed you but I didnt go to you.

I love you but I guess you think I hate you.

It's simple, ma.

It's just a strained relationship.

We can make it right.

Dont blame yourself for not being with me when I was younger.

Dont blame yourself for the lack of motherly love given to me because of your career.

Dont push yourself too hard for me.

I wish I could do something right this time.

I wish you know that I love you.

I wish that you can be proud of me, at least once in my life.

I wish that you could say that you love me.

I love you.

HAHAHAHA a must-read.

2010-08-22T00:39:00.002+08:00

Something I found in my PB's blog. HAHAHAHAHAHA AWESOME TTM. WENA SHONA ALINA SJ, SHALL WE? ^^ When we go to school together.

122 things to do in school.

1. Randomly get out of your seat and sit on the floor.

2. If the person next to you is quiet, turn and inform them that they are distracting you.

3. Color red dots all over your arm and show the teacher, and tell her/him that you are allergic to School.

4. Take out sock puppets and play with them, and occasionally have them grab your classmate’s hair. When the teacher looks, keep the sock on your hand and point to your classmate and tell the teacher that the classmate is attacking you with puppets.

5. If your teacher walks around the room during the test, cover your test and glare at them suspiciously.

6. When the teacher calls on you to answer a question, talk in a creepy voice and say `I’ll never tell’ and a few questions later raise your hand and ask why you haven’t been allowed to answer a question yet.

7. When coming back from bathroom, walk through the door. Then ask how you got there.

8. Raise your hand and ask if you can be excused to skip class.

9. Meow and bark occasionally.

10. Chew gum in class. If teacher says something, take out packs of gum and start passing out gum.

11. Stand up and introduce yourself at the beginning of class (even though everyone knows you). Inform everyone that you have had `the problem’ for three years now. Then act confused and ask if the class is Alcoholics Anonymous.

12. Shove your heaviest book off your desk. Repeat. Glare at someone else every time the teacher looks at you.

13. Make a cone shape out of paper and glue red tissue paper to the top. Scribble/draw red and orange all over it. Wear it on your head and tell everyone that you’re a volcano.

14. Tell your teacher you don’t need to do your homework because you’re skipping school tomorrow.

15. Write `Gullible’ on a piece of paper. Tape that piece of paper to the floor, ceiling, or chalkboard. Then tell everyone there is gullible written on the ___(floor ceiling or chalkboard).

16. Yell out STOP DROP AND ROLL.

17. If someone speaks over the intercom, curl up in fetal position under your desk and say `It’s the voices again.’

18. Randomly get up and run a lap around the room, then sit down and act as if nothing had happened.

19. Get up and get a tissue, then just stand and stare at the tissue. If asked what you are doing by the teacher, claim that you are having a staring contest with the tissue and you’re sure you are about to win.

20. Lead your class in a sing-a-long.

21. Invent an imaginary hamster. Ask everyone if they would like to hold him.

22. In a creepy voice say to everyone `You will die in seven days’ Act like nothing had happened.

23. Get up to sharpen your pencil or find a tissue, then stand up there and look around. Then cry out `I’m lost ’

24. Ask if you can teach the class.

25. Act like you’re in the army, saluting to teachers and calling them ma’am and sir. March everywhere.

26. If a teacher isn’t already in the classroom, when they enter, inform them that they are late and should report to the principal.
Like, say `like,’ like, a lot…like

27. Draw a flipbook at the bottom right corner of your notebook.

28. Re-enact or make up your very own 50-minute silent movie.

29. Use a kick me sign. As a challenge, see how many people you can put a kick me sign on without them knowing it.

30. Start singing Can you feel the love tonight from the Lion King.

31. Every time someone asks you to do something, ask if they want fries with that.

32. Finish all your sentences with In accordance with the prophecy.

33. End all sentences with .co.uk .

34. Leave your zipper open for one hour. If anyone points it out, say, Sorry, I really prefer it this way .

35. When someone says Have a nice day , tell them you have other plans .

36. Hold up a piece of paper that says in large letters CHECK YOUR FLY .

37. Shout WOW after every sentence of the lecture.

38. Ask whether you have to come to class.

39. Every few minutes, take a sheet of notebook paper, write Signup Sheet at the top, and start passing it around the room.

40. Stand to ask questions. Bow deeply before taking your seat after the professor answers.

41. Interrupt every few minutes to ask the professor, Can you spell that?

42. Disassemble your pen. Accidentally propel pieces across the room while playing with the spring. Go on furtive expeditions to retrieve the pieces. Repeat.

43. Bring a small cactus to class with you. Raise your hand, and when you’re called on, say that the cactus has a question. Turn and look at the cactus, as if you’re waiting for it to say something. After a few moments, shrug, and wait for your professor to move on. Do this once a day, and become increasingly irritated with the cactus every time, sighing heavily and giving it evil looks when it fails to “speak.” When you leave the room after class, start yelling at the cactus, “I can’t believe you embarrassed me AGAIN….”

44. Brush your teeth during class. While doing so, raise your hand as if you have a question, and mumble your question incoherently while brushing, spewing toothpaste all over the place. If your professor objects to your actions, go on a tirade about proper oral hygiene.

45. Carve a bust of your professor out of cheese. Tie a ribbon around it, and present it to him/her at the beginning of class. Demand extra credit.

46. Get the whole class to show up a few minutes early, and throw a surprise party for your professor. Insist that you can’t start class until he/she has a piece of cake. Keep asking people when the strippers are going to arrive.

47. Start asking questions in a fake foreign language. Act like your professor is stupid for not being able to understand you. Get other people in the class to start speaking the fake language too, and have frequent discussions during class. Act like you’re really interested in what you’re discussing. If your professor tries to interrupt or stop you, act annoyed and motion for him/her to quiet down.

48. Wait for your professor to mention a date, and then yell out, “Bingo!” Apologize, and explain that you got confused.

49. Organize a bunch of people in one class to emit a low humming noise, keeping straight faces.

50. Organize a whole bunch of people to fall off their chairs at the same time.

51. Organize a whole bunch of people to drop their pencils/pens at a preset time.

52. Superglue coins to the floor, count how many people try to pick them up.

53. Write fake love notes and slip them into people’s lockers

54. When you use the bathroom, get a LOT of soap on your hands (If it’s the slimy kind), but don’t wash it off, just leave goo all over doorknobs, railings, etc.

55. Screaming gibberish in crowded hallways is always good for a laugh.

56. Run around the school suspiciously with your hands in a gun shape while humming the misson impossible tune.

57. Look at the person next to you for a while then say “your one of them!” then run out the class room.

58. Stand up and pretend you are a flight attendent and review the emergency procedures and exits.

59. name your pen Mr Pen, talk to him often, cry and go mad if Mr pen commits suicide (falls off the table).

60. Put a sign on your desk that says “Out of my mind be back soon” Then go to sleep. If your teacher wakes you up Scream CAN’T YOU READ THE SIGN? then go back to sleep.

**ADDITIONALS**

61. Walk into the classroom like a super spy. (keep your back on the walls as you walk, point your finger up like a gun, look around with shifty eyes, hum the mission impossible theme, etc.)

62. After everything your teacher says, ask why continuously.

63. If your teacher is yelling at a classmate, wait for them to finish their tantrum then ask” DOES SOMEBODY NEED A HUG?????” very loudly.

64. If your teacher starts blowing up at you for saying that, simply reply, “wow I can tell you’re a blast at parties”

65. Sit in a corner and wait for everyone to stare at you. When they do, grab your head and scream “ THE LIGHT! MAKE IT STOP! ARGH IT BURNS!!!!”

66. Flick pieces of paper around the class.

67. When your teacher tells you to stop, cross your arms and say, “Your racist against paper aren’t you.”

68. Don’t do your Homework.

69. When your teacher asks you why you didn’t do your homework say “I dropped it while beating up this guy for saying you’re the worst teacher ever.” then sit there and smile sweetly.

70. When you have a supply teacher, wait for them to write their name on the board. Then when they say hello my name it Mr./Mrs (insert name here), you stand up and say “PROVE IT!”

71. When your teacher asks why you were late say, “My goldfish died.” Then burst into tears.

72. When handing in your homework, write this paper will self-destruct in 5 seconds at the bottom.

73. When you leave the class bow and say, “May the force be with you, young one.”

74. When the teacher turns the light off, start singing opera as loud as you can. When they turn the light back on, look around pretending to be confused.

75. Whisper to the person next to you. When the teacher comes up behind you, scream “OMG GET AWAY! RAPE! RAPE! RAPE!!!!!!!!!!!!”

76. Walk into class dancing the Macarena

77. Tell your teacher you heard the other teachers talking about him/her in the staff room

78. Raise your hand and say “I totally agree” after everything your teacher says

79. Spend the whole lesson trying to lick your elbow

80. Speak in French.

81. Come late to class in a Spider-Man costume; say there was “a disturbance”

82. When they tell someone to turn around have everyone in class do it as well

83. “The homework’s due now? Oh, give me a minute then.”

84. Hand in an essay where every word is mispelt.

85. Run in the room screaming, “THE WORLD IS GOING TO END!”

86. When the teacher asks you why you are late, say, “the queen is never late, everyone else is simply early”.

87. When a teacher asks you a question, say, “I’m sorry, the brain you tried to reach has been disconnected, please leave me alone or try again later, thank you.”

88. When the teacher turns on the overhead projector, scream “AAH MY EYES!!”

89. Tell yourself knock knock jokes, then laugh loads.

90. Hide under your desk and yell “THE SKY IS FALLING!”

91. When someone knocks on the door, shout “OH NO, THEY’RE COMING FOR ME!”

92. Bring in a year 7 and says he’s your new pet.

93. In your technology lesson, when the teacher asks you what you are making, say a nuclear bomb.

94. When your teacher asks you a question just stare at them.

95. Constantly talk to yourself in a low voice.

96. Purposely fall off your chair and make a big scene about it.

97. If you’re playing a really boring game, make a big deal if you win.

98. Glue all their scissors together.

99. Make paperclip jewellery. E.g. necklaces, earrings etc…

100. Pull out one strand of someone’s hair and yell “DNA!”

101. Wear a sticker or a badge that says ‘I am retarded’

102. Talk to a pen.

103. Put your hand up in a test and wait for your teacher to come over. When they whisper what’s wrong, yell “NO I WON’T SNOG YOU!”

104. Yell “LIAR!” to everything they say.

105. Smile. All the time.

106. Draw a tiny black spot on your arm. Make it bigger everyday. Look at it and say, “It’s spreading, IT’S SPREADING!”

107. When a supply teacher is taking the register, say everyone is missing. Then, if they ask who you are, say ‘Your worst Nightmare’

108. When you know the answer, bounce up and down a go ” OOOHH I KNOW THIS”

109. When a teacher calls on you say, ” I forgot”

110. If you have to blow your nose in class, blow your nose to the tune of your favourite song.

111. When the teacher is not facing you, the whole class moves their desk forward towards the teacher

112. Hum throughout the lesson, but make sure you do not get caught!

113. When a teacher asks you a question… Reply “ERM, COMPUTER SAYS NOOO!!!”

114. When the teacher makes a statement, stand boldly and shout “I OBJECT”

115. REPEAT the last word the teacher says but say it much louder!

116. While the teachers back is turned, everyone swaps seats!

117. If you are sure you haven’t passed the test, write your phone number at the end with a heart!

118. When you hear a Police car siren from outside, run around screaming in the classroom shouting “Oh no, they’re here. Oh my god. Shit. Shit. Shit. What do I do? Miss/Sir you have to help me! Oh god. They must have found the body! HELP!”

119. When it’s your turn to answer a question… Shout “NEXT!”

120.When you come in late and the teacher asks why you’re late, say “A wizard is never late. nor is he early. he arrives precisely when he means to.”

121. When someone whispers a question, loudly say “STOP CAUSING A SCENE!”

122.Every time the teacher tells you something, suspicously ask “Really?”

-http://thatssosamantha.blogspot.com/ my BELOVED Passerby :D

heheheh this post was saved as draft with images only, on 6/7.

2010-08-19T00:45:00.010+08:00

HAHAHAHA ohmygosh I just realised I only uploaded photos on 6th July, I didn't type anything!!!

7th June- Indian Zichar day with the Nanas and Sj!
I remembered it was another term which dajie taught me but I FORGOT ): ): ):

THERE'S HORLICKS DINOSAUR OMGOMGOMGOMGOG

COOOOL, we ordered too many stuffs- Roti pratas[a hell lot], Roti john, FRIED ICECREAM, etc etc. SJ and I fought like madness over I forgot what, and Wena took the video of us. I'm so going to get it from her. :D It was crazyass funny and I remembered Wena and Alina laughing like forever. HAHAHA

28th May- Party world with Murphy Jiahao Regina and Ade!

In the end I ended up comfortably wearing Ade's shirt and shorts. hehehehehe
Henneyway was super super out of tune HAHAHAHAHA and I remember Jiahao sings damn funny too! Murph reg and ade were awesome gooood, like concert like that. HAHAHAHA. Right afterwards we went to Ade's place because it's so near Northpoint, while on the way we bought Monopoly Deal. I learnt it that day- WOAHHH I never knew it existed and the moment I learnt it, I got hooked onto it. I can play it again and again just to make someone[Jiahao, actually] bankrupt, it feels awesome HAHAHA I think that's sadisticcc

15th May- oops kinda jumbled up the timeline, hehehehe. Went to Serangoon Gardens Country Club to bowl with same old [Murphy Jiahao Ade Regina Kerliang] and ended up at Regina's place afterwards, if I'm not wrong

I LOVE HER HOUSE'S STRUCTURE IT'S AWESOMEEEE, taken from the dining room, we were on the first floor. I took this photo upwards, this is our ceiling, cool or cool!

Trying to fix wifi HAHAHA I cant believe they dont know how to fix it when they have that. hehehe

Taking photos while Murphy and Jiahao were playing wifi. HAHAHAHA super slack that day. I just learnt the malay term- LEPAK :D :D :D

"ehhhh~ just lepak one corner kay~" HAHAHAHAHAHA

Random photos

The day before I cut my hair!

My last Lasik appointment. This box was empty when I first came for my Lasik surgery. Now it's MORE THAN HALF FULL OMGGGGG I'm so proud I dropped one box toooooooooo!!! I can simply imagine how elated these people were with newborn eyes , just like me they felt so happy, for that moment I just felt like donating something because long lost eyesight has returned... blahblah you know HAHAHA yup you would just feel like GIVING. ^^ And that feeling is more than just THANKFUL. (: After regaining my eyesight from 1100 degrees EACH EYE [yeah each eye ohmygosh how did I survive], it feels like HEAVEN.. simply feels blissful and flower petals falling everywhere. HAHAHAHAHHAA
It's like, my dream was to wake up one day and to see my bedroom clearly. Instead of forcing my eyes to squinch when they cant even see, just to find my pair of glasses and sometimes I would accidentally drop them on the floor in which thereafter I would spend fifteen mins blindly moving my hands on the floor hoping to feel the glasses. ohmy ): I would love to see my uniform which I hang behind my door as a set of UNIFORM instead of some figurine that might look suggestively scary.

I'M HAPPY. (: (: (: (: (: (:

NO MORE dry contacts problem, infections, worrying about using up contacts before 6 months, wouldnt need to bring contacts lens solutions and case and extras while heading out, wouldnt have to worry about being unaided while swimming, wouldnt have to worry about losing one of them while outside and being dangerously blind for the other half of the day. Wouldnt have to look damn nerdy with my thick pair of glasses, esp during chalets and sleepovers.

MOP and Epichouse outing. :D :D :D :D Zack Bel Minyi Patrick Roy

SUPER SHIOK OMG I KEEP WINNING IN THE RUNNING CONTEST HEHEHEHEHE I LOVE PLAYING RAVING RABBITS ;D :D

Food was DAMN SHIOK

I LOVE THE PHOTOS, VERY VERY MUCH ^^. After raving rabbits we went to Geylang at 11pm [ooooo at that timing?! hehee] to have supper at some Hong Kong Kopitiam. Woah the dim sum was heavenly. Thanks to Roy's recommendation!!! :D

3rd June - Neoprints with Bel!

Super like EVERYTHING :D
okay that's about it, I'm so sleepy now!! Will update those outdated stuffs soon.Hehehehe the alliteration was funny, tickles my tummy heheheheheheahblahblahblahyawns

ANYWAY! HELLO THA!! WHERE'D YOU GOOO YOU PB!

I like this very much ^^

2010-08-12T23:55:00.001+08:00

I LOVE THE LAST SENTENCE.

"Kay I'm pretty excited. Please don't let me down."

She's awesome.

2010-08-08T02:08:00.001+08:00

I WANT TO BLOG BUT I'M SO BUSY AHHHHHHHHHHH

I miss my hair.

2010-08-01T01:52:00.003+08:00

And I've made up my mind, sj I'm going to get this top. I've been considering it since two months back. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

I'm that poor!

Today I left office pretty late due to some rush orders, and had to duplicate a new key for the staff people. Realised that training was cancelled because the sun/weather was too hot and everyone trained in the morning already, legs were breaking or something like that. Hence found dyna at Suntec, completed the whole BishiBashi Champion game OMG SO FUN HAHAHAHAA and watched Daniel do his Parapara [forced]with Alina HAHAHAHAHAA he literally shook the machine when he jumped LMAO! Completed PhotoHunt as well, and afterwards we cabbed to Aljunied CC to watch super exciting girls' matches, woah they are really awesome ttmttmttm. Was so inspired and all, everyone was so hungry for the ball. OOO IT RHYMES, AHHAHAHA! I felt like playing while watching. The best girl locally is really DAMN GOOD. And oh Number 7 in 3rd Team is super super cute. Cabbed home afterwards, reached home at eleven, on dee dot. AHHAHAHA

So inspired to play now. (:

I'm still updating past posts, upload sometime soon :D

Hatched.

2010-07-31T00:36:00.002+08:00

I went to Hatched yesterday with sj, was really really anticipating that delicious smell stirred by eggs and "friends of eggs", or so the menu says. It was smaller than expected, but the service was awesome. The lady patiently talked to us about any dish we pointed out, and after billing and all, we realised that this restaurant doesnt have service or gst charge at all. It felt SO GOOD. :D

I am uploading a hell lot of photos in my new post, let's hope that I have the time to update. So many things to say, so little time to do that though. (: My life is awesome but somehow it's solitas.

I'M SO HAPPY

2010-07-29T02:13:00.001+08:00

2010-07-23T23:50:00.001+08:00

Am I a failure?

2010-07-11T14:15:00.003+08:00

Where's my guardian angel, I feel as though I'm searching for something somehow, every single day.

2010-07-05T14:15:00.000+08:00

where are you

2010-07-01T00:14:00.000+08:00

I'm too worried about you.

bastard song that speaks the truth.

2010-06-30T13:44:00.001+08:00

Playing with fire-

I don't slip or trip when she asks me where I've been (Where you been)
One big smile on my face zip it darling it's just you and me (You and me)
Now I'm on some Alfie behaviour, I'll call you back later
Too many fish in the sea for me
But when the lights come on, and what's her name is gone
I realise where I'm supposed to be

I tried to believe every word of your sweet story
But intuition keeps telling me
You're making a fool outta me

'Cause I'm such a good liar
Just admit it (I never did it)
Yes you did it (No I didn't)
Ay
I'm playing with fire
Just admit it (I never did it)
I know you did it (No I didn't)
Yes you did
'Cause I'm such a good liar

I can't help myself, I keep playing with fire

Thoughts running right through the night as I watch you sleep
(She's gettin' closer)
I can't help but check his text, while he's passed out next to me
(It's only a matter of time)
I'm on some CSI behaviour, who's gonna save ya
You'll be the fool when the truth comes out
So when those lights come on, and what's her face is gone
We're straight back to the same routine

I tried to believe every word of your sweet story
But intuition keeps telling me
You're making a fool outta me

Living life in disguise, can't keep up with these lies
You do anything to try and catch me out, but I never leave no signs
In my heart we was meant to be
But guys like me be like two or three
I can't help myself I love girls, I can't kick out playing with fire

River flows in you.

2010-06-28T11:58:00.002+08:00

I learnt this since last year but I just realised Kaisheng didnt send me the last page for this song. ): HAHAHAHA isnt it funny?! And I cant find it. Can anyone help me? And Yiruma's skills are amazing, he gave me goosebumps, and it's inspiring :D

2010-06-27T21:26:00.001+08:00

basketball, phone, keys, and left the bloody mess a place called home.

2010-06-25T12:17:00.003+08:00

What is Love

Are your palms sweaty? Is your heart racing? Is your voice caught within your chest? - It isn't love, it's like. Am i right to say you cant keep your eyes or hands off them, am i right? - It isn't love, its lust. Are you proud, and eager to show them to your friends? - It isn't love, its pride. Do you want them because you know they're always there for you? - It isn't love, its loneliness. Are you there because everyone wants to see you two being together - It isn't love, its loyalty. Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand or showed you affection? - It isn't love, its low confidence. Do you stay for their confession of love, because you don't want to hurt them? - It isn't love, its pity. Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat? - It isn't love, its infatuation. Do you pardon their faults because you care about them? - It isn't love, its friendship. Do you you tell them everyday that they are the only one you think of? - It isn't love, it's a lie. Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake? - It isn't love, its charity.

However,
does your heart ache and break when they're sad - then its love.
do you cry for their pain,even when they're strong? - then its love.
do their eyes see your true heart and touch your soul so deeply it hurts - then its love. do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there? - then its love. do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are? - then its love.
are you attracted to others but stay with them faithfully without regret? - then its love.

Happy birthday cherbestie

2010-06-25T01:38:00.009+08:00

since sec 1 huh :D

we were so toot. bestfriends the moment we met each other, sat next to each other in 1e.

clicked and talked like there's no tomorrow, didnt we. crazy talkative girls (:

last year:

Sorry I didnt have the time to meet up with you often, I was busy and our schedules always clash. I havent posted the previous photos we took. Looking forward to see you again, hopefully not to shop for your bf's stuffs?!?! HAHAHAHAHAA joel ah joel, must take care of bestie if not I will personally fix and smash your jiaobin face. HAHAHA okay jk cher. (:

We changed alot, didnt we? But to me, you're forever that girl I knew in 1e.

2010-06-25T00:10:00.001+08:00

Absence makes the heart grows fonder. I'm ecstatic that you're finally back, and responding to your post, I hope to have made your day every single day.

hehehe okay, i miss my hair.

2010-06-21T17:47:00.004+08:00

Pris sent me this last night and I was astonished by how my heart ached when I saw my long hair. These photos were taken at my darkest darkest period, during early May. But these babes were there, and all the sweating, crazyass laughing [until my parents got pissed off because it was 11pm and my bro had to sleeeeeep], I actually felt tired enough that night to tackle my insomnia. We made videos and trust me, it's HILARIOUS TTM HAHAHAA, I was Simon in American Idol, by the way. (:

Seriously, thank you!!!! I appreciate every single thing everyone has done for me, you know who you guys are. Love.

You're just a playboy, and I was the thrill, I know. You have already planned this all along, haven't you, wasn't I fun, to last this long with you.

2010-06-18T23:18:00.001+08:00

Nah, you're not worth it at all.

STONING

2010-06-18T13:26:00.000+08:00

『Bells』more EBJ pleaseeeeeeeee says (1:24 PM):
HAHAHAHHAA
NOW YOU SEE HUH
AHAHAH FOR A MOMENT I THOUGHT YOUR WEBCAM HANG.....
TIL YOU BLINK
AHAHAHA
allhailthedramamama choppedelectricbluehair says (1:25 PM):
HAHAHHAHAHHAA
HAHAHHAH
OMG
CANNOT STOP LAUYGHING
HAAAAHA

damn happy can, can, can?!?!?!?!

2010-06-18T12:17:00.003+08:00

This should be the epitome of natural JOY.

Anyway, everywhere I went today I see electric blue WHY AH?! I'M SO HAPPY!?

2010-06-16T23:28:00.003+08:00

As days go by, I feel that I'm living just to die one day.

Especially today.

I realise, no one will push my swing anymore.

I can't even contact you.

You said I could rely, by all means.

But I don't see any way that I can.

You don't see what you have done to this.

HAHA LET'S PLAAAAYYY

2010-06-16T17:06:00.003+08:00

I'm in a VERY RETARDED MOOD RIGHT NOW, you can ask anvy. [she's in the workplace with me] Office has become a KBOX session. :D

3, 2, 1 let's roll!
rhyme with me

EHH
BEE
SEE
DEE
EEE
EFF
JEE
ETCH
AH
JAY
KAY
ELL
AMM
ENN
AWW
PEE
CUE
ARAH
ASS
TEE
YOU
WII
DABAYOU
EXX
WHY
ZACK

AHAHAHAHAHAH THIS IS SO FUNNY HAHAHAHHA siao liao. today's blow too much to me already. I'M GOING CRAZY.

my summerlove.

2010-06-16T01:40:00.007+08:00

where's my summerlove?

I heart Logitech webcam.

2010-06-15T23:04:00.009+08:00

Logitech can I be your spokesperson. hehehehee

Today was kinda bad, my monthly thang went pit bottom today, it was so painful- my eyes kept rolling backwards, and I kept having blackouts. Mum was terrified,she wanted to send me to the hospital. HAHAHAHAHA that would be so funny, then I would have MIA-ed again. People like sj would text me, " EH you die already hur" or wl, " WHY YOU MIA ):" .

I've been so extreme nowadays, maybe one day I WILL disappear. :D HAAHAHHHAAHA

2010-06-14T23:54:00.003+08:00

I feel like I'm drowning in ice water
My lips have turned a shade of blue
I'm frozen with this fear that you may disappear
Before I've given you the truth
I bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here

'Cause I can't say what I want to

I bleed my heart out just for you

some things that i dream of but might never.

guess the colourrrrrrrrrrahhh

2010-06-14T23:23:00.004+08:00

I highlighted a teen weeny bit. heheheheee

I dont have the guts to do this yet. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I would buy a wig instead if I were this guy.

I always say I love all colours except the shit colour.

So, what's my ultimate favourite colour?

electric brue blue hue

electric bluefied face

sweet ttm. i like the word sweetie.

2010-06-14T00:13:00.002+08:00

I saw these articles somewhere:

I was on the bus on my way to the mall, when a homeless man sat next to me.

He saw that I was looking at the bouquet of flowers he held, and told me that they were for his wife because today is her birthday.

As he got off the bus, he walked into the cemetery and placed the flowers on his wife's grave.

A love that never dies.

****************

My best friend's grandma had been fighting Alzheimer's for about 10 years, and she barely remembered her husband of 64 years.

Last night, she miraculously found her husband's hospital room (he was dying of cancer) and climbed into his bed.

They died together that night.

****************

My boyfriend was eager to meet my Mom, despite my various protests.

I pulled into the parking lot of the cemetery where she's buried, expecting him to completely freak out.

When we approached her grave, he sat down, said hello, and talked with her for an hour about how lucky he was to have me.

HAAHHA oooooo, the title seems to be TOO BIG. HOR?

2010-06-13T22:02:00.006+08:00

HAHA just playing around.

anyway

I found this while clearing rubbish in my lappy. and oh-my-goodness, look at how crazy we were, dajie sj julia and I, we were playing for the hell of it, and who CARES about summer test. HAHAHAHAHAHA, before pw times :D it gets funnier as the video plays. It was JC1. heheheeeee I miss times like this.

I think I look freaking freaking retarded, and dajie was so damn obsessed with her swollen chin, sj was engrossed in tilting and twisting her head with her gaping mouth and longest tongue. AHHAAHAHAHAHA with julia at the end. LMAO. Anyway I didnt realise that my boobs were SO BIG for a moment,and definitely NOT the part where they were laughing at me. I didnt know what the hell! And I heard myself saying, " It's so funny seeing wena in her pajamas blahblah" HAHAHAHA I wasn't bitching about you wena! Hugs. AHAHAHAH

Anyway [again] I have lots of posts saved as draftsssssss. Need to complete them before publishing. Hehehehee

OH YES is my blogskin okay? I kinda chose a template, added background and I edited the font and colours. I have good designing skills righttttt I should just go Laselle rightttt ^^ HAHAHAHAHAA wahpiang. Just kidding arh.

By the way I just came back from Resorts World and Universal Studios, AND I went to a super super nice spa whereby I was massaged till 2am last night wthell but it was so expensive thank god my uncle sponsored all of us. I was so close to being pulled out of my damp towel when I was in the spa- MY COUSINS WERE ALL TUGGING AND I KNOW THERE WERE A LOT PEEK-A-BOOS, I bet they saw everything when they pulled, can. I remembered seeing my freaking boob la OMGGGG RAHHHHHHHH TSKK. And the pipes were like blowing bubbles pushing my towel upwards. Funniest thing was my cousin and I were looking at bubbles/water spraying out of our cleavages because we were sitting on the bubbling area. Dont think dirty hur. It was 1k plus in total. I was telling sj, next time la next time. When we are rich la HOR. HAHAHAHA and all of us stayed up at uncle's place watching FIFA till 4:30am with jolly shandy[LOVE]. I'm dead beat. Dead meat. Hehehe bought a hell lot of clothes and accessories too,ate tons of jap fooddddd, steamboat and ding tai feng's XIAO LONG BAO OMG with the prawn fried rice........ai em soooouu hepeey :D It was heaven. But now I'm smacked back into reality, got to wake up by 7:30am tomorrowwww,as usual. ): But something got me hyped up and looking forward to September - my aunt's sponsoring me to bagpack with her inTaiwan!!!! For a week! omfggggggg she says, just bring your own shopping money. I'm going to save a hell lot now. :D Can I earn if I put adverts here? HAHAHAHA just kidding. Photos next post. Aaahhh okay, one photo that I love like madness:

I was really, reaaaaally hoping to get surprised by you at the custom. Swear to God cross my heart I was praying so hard.

2010-06-10T18:25:00.004+08:00

So I was just an experiment gone wrong.
Experiment, a try-out, Is that how everyone sees me?
What have I done? What did I do, that gave people the urge to make use of me, dump me?
Am I really that easy to be tricked, bullied and thrown away?

Why am I so naive?

I need someone to tell me why, and how to be me again. Where is the confident I who wasn't afraid of loneliness, who has truckloads of confidence?

Where's my guardian angel.

halfdone; publishforfun; ooo it rhymes- hor fun. HAHA siao.

2010-06-08T00:44:00.015+08:00

Yesterday before I went to Sakura with my parents, my mum was like: " EEEH! YOUR HAIR AH, WHY LIKE THAT?! Come come I style for you. " *grabbed the gatsby and folded her sleeves*

My dad did that daddy-ish chuckle: " HEHE mummy knows how to style short hair sioooollll hehe"

Mum: " EH I KNOW ONE OKAY. I know how to style short hair OKAY. " *snobby face@dad*

HAHAHAHAHAHA retarded can. This morning after I got out of my bedroom with my ALREADY styled hair, SHE HAD TO RUINED IT by insisting on styling for me. Couldn't she tell I've already spent half an hour styling?! RAHHH just by thinking of it boils my blood. HAHAHA just kidding. I think.. mimi's quite cute hur. hurhurhur erh hm.

And I couldn't believe it Joey Wong actually likes soft shell crabs and sashimi salmon with a tinge of wasabi. Yesterday she ate ten pieces of salmon, 5 tiny soft shell crabs and 10 pieces of shisamo[however they spelt it]-tiny fish with lots of tiny eggs in their bellies. Now I know why dad likes them.

Crazy thing was that I chiong-ed more than Dad and Ben. I was still dumping the oreo cheesecake [WOO!] and kuey lapis into my poor overworked stomach when they have already given up. I think I ate too much on Sunday.

ANDDDD

Saturday-the day before, lured by Wena's beaming face illustrating /recommending how mouth-watering-delicious-orm-nom-nom fried ice cream is, Alina Sj and I headed to Bukit Timah's indian/muslim kopitiam! By the way THEY HAVE HORLICKS DINOSAUR, HORLICKS T-REX AND HORLICKS GODZILLA OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG <-- for people who know me very well, LOOK AT THIS LOOK AT THIS, MINYI/BEL/ZACK/EVERYBODYYYY OMGGGGG

I've forever been asking if there is Horlicks whenever the kopitiam uncle/auntie comes up, and usually they don't even have Horlicks.

GODZILLA OMGoodness. I can't get over it, WENA SJ ALINA I really CANNOT get over it. :D

We ordered so much. And the best part was when we accumulated money together we figured that it will be around $60 +, like zichar. But this is Indian Zichar. HAHAHAHAHAHA

GUESS HOW MUCH.

$20.

OMG.

CHEAP TTM. Tested and passed, I didn't have any diarrhoe or food poisoning. It's AWESOMEEE, $20 INDIAN ZICHAR FOR THE WINNNN HAHAHAHHAHA

awesome awesome

***falling asleep soon, continue tmr hehehehe cute hur hehe

monologue

2010-06-07T23:52:00.004+08:00

"It was our first chat. I talked to you through msn, that was my first time i talked to a stranger online. You're the first, and last. I thought maybe we wouldn't chat for long, but we did. There's something about you that I just couldn't resist. I know I had to be there for you, talk to you.

It was then I realise, I want you.

But you're not mine."

"Great, because I am not him, I can never be him.
I admit, I've lost."

"I really wish, you're mine"

"One day, I'm bringing you to my family, tell them how 'gay' I am to have found you."

work it! HAHA

2010-06-02T12:24:00.005+08:00

the day before.

hehehehee yesterday, i kind of miss my mane.

It's so sweet this girl told me that she admires me because I have that ability to make the people around me happy when I'm happy. And when I'm happy, it's genuine.

I feel so so good. Thank you, really. (:

Blasting "One Less Lonely Girl" now in the office, we were joking DUH, of course one less lonely girl. because the lonely girl becomes one lonely boy already. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

yadadada hehehehe so funnyyyy

Anvy just told me i cant wear blingbling stuffs. omg i didnt realise, i actually sacrificed a lot things. omgomgomgogomgomg i still want to wear my bracelets i love bracelets and i wanna wear my long flowy skirts, HOW?!?!?!?!?

Anyway when i reached home at 10:30pm yesterday, HAHAHAHAHA i PURPOSELY opened the gate first, then the wooden door.

"HELLO MI, DADDY! I CUT SHORT HAIR LEY! *wide grin*"

My dad literally dropped his jaw. HAHAHAHA

Mum shook her head again and again.

Dad was like, " WOOOOOAAHHUR"

and they just kept staring at me HAHHHAHHHAHAA

My bro saw and he was damn jealous, because catholic high doesnt allow this type of hair. He says his sister very shuai now. HAHAHAHAHA we brothers la.

My grandma loves it. ^^ she says i'm her grandson.

Yesterday night was the first time i received the most omgs in an hour. HAHHAHAHHAAHHAHA

chopchopbyebye HAHAHAHAHHA

2010-06-01T23:34:00.005+08:00

After all the misunderstandings and happenings, I really cannot take it anymore. I need to do something.
When I'm extremely upset I tend to do funny things, hahahaha.

cupcakes.

2010-06-01T17:23:00.005+08:00

After having been through so much, i realised that when two people are in love, they need to have that fear of losing the other in order to maintain the chemistry, to last.
Not too much, too much will constitute to possessive-ness.
The lack of it would mean that the other doesn't weigh any importance in his/her heart.

I have that fear, do you? Tell me, am i worth that fear?

woohoo what i've been up to [i saved this as draft two-three weeks ago, damn outdated.]

2010-05-30T22:44:00.027+08:00

#1- pre-zouk

HAHAHAHA sadly because my curfew is eleven, i have to rush back by ten thirty. how awesome is that :D

but before i left, murph, jh and jh's sis's bf were getting drunk with martell already. peili ade dorcas were just sitting there, sad faced with me because i had to leave. ):

ate at taiwanese cafe while waiting for murphy. ade was SO NICE she treated us to mango dessert.

#2- 4h meetup wooo

HAHAHA THEY PURPOSELY OUTCAST ME.

best people to laugh with, but most of the time they laugh AT me, and i dont understand why?!

and Glory shou le!!!! she shou le!!!!

ate at manhanttan fish market, amanda's leftovers- we finished every single bit. HAHAHAHA going out with amanda is awesome, always got extra food :D

#3- zichar people at yishun!

HAHAHAHAHAHA I LOOK SO FUNNY. these guys waited for me to reach yishun after my work, and we had zi char. they forced me to eat lala for the first time!!! EWWW and deer meat. awww reminds me of bambi i feel so bad eating it, BUT i like the taste. HAHAHHAA

afterwards we simply slacked somewhere and took i think 50 photos of self timer with kl's 1k japanese phone HAHAHAHA i just found out that it costed 1k.

#4- jh's crib, zi char, celebrate vinc's bday.

this is hilarious HAHAHAHAHA WTH imma 100%lesbo

angie's cam shy siolllll

we LOVE vinc's hat because he bought it for 5 bucks i think? at thailand HAHAHAH. and the best thing is that it looks like Luffy's hat! I LOVE LUFFY :D

ade peili angela jh vincent and i met up and hang out at jh's place. his place is awesomeeee from his 40th floor you can see the flyer, the f1 tracks i think, and it's just breathtaking. went downstairs and have zi char AGAIN- the usual oyster omelette, stingray which wasnt good, meat and KANGKONG EWWWW. it was to celebrate jh's last week of normal life because he's going into ns soon HAHAHA i think he cried.

#5-random day with ade and murphy, sober day

was damn sad that day i rmb.

had carls junior and woooo ate the chilli cheese beef fries i likey :D

#6- the morn after the night i died, ks's and daniel's birddays

HAPPY BIRDDAY KAI SHENG I HOPE YOU LOVE YOUR NS LIFE :D

and HAPPY BIRDDAY DANIEL YOU ASSSS MADE US WAIT YOU AH HAHAHAHA okay okay forgiven.

anyway i can carry shona HAHAHAHAHA i'm so strong CAN.

#7 - woke up at 6am and went out at 7am just to meet murph jh dorcas @ raffles city Mac's. i was late by one hour and a half i think, HAHAHAHAH ooppps! we met up early because someone was going botak and being sent to some ulu island very very sooooon, like in two hours, that day. :D

#8 - rah asked me out and we went to meet someone who brought us to SSC fish and co. talking to them felt so much better.

#10 - haji lane on 1may10, with shopping kakis HAHAHA dajie laysee kaykay jul sj

ate at somewhere ulu, dajie introduced us. the chicken chop and potatoes are AWESOMEEEEE.

hanging out with them makes me feel so much better, laysee, dajie and sj laughing at every single thing, laughing at everybody, and jul and kaykay always kena laughed HAHAHAHAHHA. the atmosphere was, so good. awesome is the word. i want to hang out with them soon. very very soon.

#11 - one of the most emo days, it was pretty long ago, three weeks ago i think hahahahaa

so thankful for them being there for me.

super duper emo.

THEY'RE LIKE GIANTS AHHAHAHAAA

i'm so small.

thank you people (: ah and thank god we didnt eat zichar AGAIN HAHAHA

#12 - dynamite's virgin trip to sentosa- IN BIKINIS! HAHAAAHAHAHA [i typed ninikis LMAO]

I LOVE LONDON CABS ^^

wena and i were late by an hour, hahahahaha as usualllll

i think my smile here looks like jiro's!! HAHAHAAHA

played volleyball and rolled in the sand, basking in the gentle sunshine

my favourite noodles that day

i'm so happy that day, dyna for the win, again and again and again. HAHAHAHAHA love those people.

#13 - i wish my future husband will be like my dad.

super duper sweet. guess who. :D the first photo i took from my new phone.

#14 - popeyeeesss with sj, two times in a row!!

everytime, whenever i see her she's always wearing that UH HUM buuuuuuu t c h outfit :D we looky likey couple HAHAHAHAHA

we still remember that time when we were both at this accessories' shop and the sales girl KEPT ASSUMING WE WERE LESBIANS, kept saying "waaaaa, wear couple haivannas slippers somemore siolll" and kept teasing us as though we would be shy or embarrassed. SHY YOUR HEAD LA SHY. HAHAHAHAAHHAHAAH but we didnt deny, just laughed along. HAHAHAHAH anyway that salesgirl wasn't the only one who assumed that.

anyway i really want to thank sj for the surprise gift she got for me, because she knew i was upset. i love the eiffel tower, and she got me a super colourful eiffel tower keychain. the sweetest part was her telling me that i should use it as a key chain for my keys, because whenever i open the gate with my keys, i would be holding on to the key chain as well, and i will remember who gave me this, every single day. it's damn sugar. thanks babe. thanks alot, for everything.

#15 - accompanied cher to get presents and cake for her bf. sweet hur. but i felt kinda sad because.. yup.

#16 - had frolicks with the most unexpected person in the whole wide world.

i miss frolick. and the girls there are still hot. HAHAHAHHAA they wont ever let me work there, OBVIOUSLY DUHHHH

#17 - had ichiban with anvy, and martelleeeed

i ate sashimi!! HAHAHAHAHA i cant believe it!

#18 - WENA'S BIRTHDAY! :D

hehehe i said they looked like a couple HAHAHAHAHA

I LOVE THIS PHOTO MUACK.

SUPER CUTE we were blowing balloons like madness and rushing to wena's place to surprise her la HAHAHAHAHA damn funny we were running, DAMN FUNNY it tickles my tummy.

playing with the static and hair standing thingy HAHAHAHA alina looks retarded here.

cockroaches on her birthday cake HAHAHAHAHHA!

the surprise was a success yay.

okay yup this is damn outdated, SUPER SUPER LONG AGO STUFFS. and it's damn curt, like not many words and all. i'm going to update my blog more often. hahahahahaha anyway, i really miss pw 118, and outings with some 33a people. when are we hanging outtttt?

finally, a super long post! HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

2010-05-30T13:28:00.001+08:00

what hurts the most, is being so close.

2010-05-30T01:14:00.003+08:00

Was i really the best girlfriend you could ever have? Was i the most wonderful girlfriend in your eyes?

2010-05-27T23:57:00.001+08:00

It's funny how people text and call you everyday. Telling you how their day has been.

But has anyone ever thought of asking how was my day?

2010-05-26T00:33:00.002+08:00

for tonight im on my own

electric red top

2010-05-25T00:39:00.006+08:00

i was looking through my old photos, and i realised this was how i looked like two years ago.

should i cut bangs again? ^^

i wanna dye red hair too, maybe short electric red hair with goldie highlights?

i LOVE electric blue, but i dont have the guts to do that yet HAHAHHAA

and should i just go Laselle? :D mum says as long as i'm interested in whichever course, i'm free to go for it. i always thought Laselle was cooooolll, should i realise my childhood dream?

i likey

2010-05-24T13:51:00.000+08:00

“History, despite its wrenching pain, cannot be unlived, and if faced with courage, need not lived again.”
— Maya Angelou.

“To be happy, it first takes being comfortable being in your own shoes. The rest can work up from there. The hardest situation to stay happy, I think, is when you’re trying to find love, and yourself at the same time. It just doesn’t seem to fit well. So I believe that happiness is being able to wake up and just know that this is what you wanted, and not what somebody else wanted.”
— Sophia Bush

2010-05-23T23:30:00.005+08:00

have i done something wrong?

did something, somewhere gone terribly wrong?

how can i fix it, is there a way?

why are there no guide lines for me, anymore?

where's that light shining in from the outside?

why cant i see anything from this ghastly wound,

shocking repellent, stumbled upon and stuck

am i caught in this dance of death;

is my guardian angel crying;

i'm falling

i gave my best shot

tears fall along the bus transparent sill

along with the raindrops that dribbled down the sides

the playlist that i love but the songs it plays that i hate

when that first teardrop touched the surface of my jeans

i thought of the initial 10 cents shoulders offered to lean on

the funny favourite intangible ice cream treat at westmall

the virtual cupcakes that cheered me up instantaneously

the said kiteflying that might never happen

the promised new playlist

the random facts i used to spill

there are some things meant to be said face to face

it's funny how i try to imagine your face

almost all the time

even when you said you're angry

i try to imagine your agitated expression

am i going crazy already;

are you just an imaginery

angel

after that long speech you gave

i find it hard to tell you more

the troubles are dissolving

but yours are piling

now it's my turn to help

but are you accepting my offer?

are you turning away now as you see this;

am i losing you, already?

can someone

tell me what to do to make this right?

sillydilly

2010-05-23T00:41:00.003+08:00

Am i one really silly girl for doing what i did?

2010-05-22T12:51:00.002+08:00

Something i learnt-
After being dumped, one feels extremely worthless, insignificant and unattractive. hehehehehe yup yup

HAHAHAHA wtheckkkkkk

2010-05-18T17:38:00.001+08:00

dad: "hey ben just now i saw your friends and gary's head looks out of shape."
ben: " haha HA YUP. he's the stupid one."
dad: " well that may mean clever, or good in sports y'know."
ben: " HAH. no way."

and for dont know WHATSOEVER REASON ben turned to me and observed my head.
[i had the best hairdo on, clipped fringe all the way behind and hair all bun-ned up, hey the WEATHER SUCKS RIGHT, SO HOT AND HUMID. no choice seh]

ben: " EH JIE. your forehead pop out one lor."
dad: " ya i have too, she inherited that from me i guess."
mum: * LAUGHS*
dad: " welllll, i use my fringe to cover. it will look better what."

me: " EH ME TOO WHAT. "
and they just kept staring at my shiny pimple-less[hur hmm ya] forehead.

ben: " OH NO YOU DONT"
me: " OH YES I DO, IN SCHOOL AND OUTSIDE, I DO WHA."
ben: " aiya. dont need. fringe not enough. you need all your hair to cover your face lah, so ugly."
me: " ya la ya la might as well."

details in my pain.

2010-05-18T00:26:00.006+08:00

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?

If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads saying
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold

Just two hours ago a girl literally slapped me hard on the face twice.

HAHAHAHHA it's painful, actually.

But it antithetically proves more soothing than the perturbed permanent heartache.

2010-05-17T00:25:00.007+08:00

tonight is the worst of all nights. i didnt know there's still more to come.

havent felt so angry since.

gimmeagunandi'llshootsomeoneNOW

THE EPITOME OF SCUMTARDS

2010-05-16T19:20:00.006+08:00

i just saw something, and i find you so damn cheap. i wish you'll get your retribution, someday; hopefully as soon as possible. you cheapen yourself, and everyone sees you the same way. your friends, they're thinking you're the most wasted;most ** in their circle of friends- everyone knows what you're like. you ignore your true friends, your **; the ones who loved you the most. your parents-you dont even appreciate who treats you right. you **** for people who dont and wont give a damn about you. you're not precious, anymore. from now on, 16 May 10 7:19pm; i give up on you.

"wake up joey, look around you; it's time to open your eyes." HAHAHAHA

2010-05-16T14:17:00.014+08:00

feel like typing it out after a month's hiatus in my brain

things that i cannot forget, never ever forget.

my hp vibrated at about six thirty. it was shona's message. "ARE YOU IN WOODLANDS NOW"

i replied," no it's six thirty i just finished work HAHAHAH"

shona," oh i thought i could drop by and give you a hug"

sweet ttm ttm ttm ttm aww it's like. wapiang. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHA shona if you're reading this, i doubt you will know i rmb right, HAHAHAHAH i really love that, seriously. can never forget. and the whole time you kept messaging me, hearing me out. i wonder how you tolerated that. hahahahahahahahah i'm so sorry. and i wonder how yh's going to counsel me HAHAHAHAHAH

best colleague ever. she helped me a lot because i was damn depressed in the office, almost the whole time since i started work there. when i ran away from work once, she understood. when i cried like hell after a particular phone call, hiding in the corner, she was there to lend me her shoulder to lean on. she treated me to minds cafe, made sure i was happy. talked so much sense into me, and shared so damn much with me. she didnt get tired of me. it's really heartwarming. iron man 2, she called and called me just to make sure i was free the next day, even though i had plans already. she booked cathay seats that were smacked right in the middle, on the very first screening day of the movie-it's expensive. she treated me again at ichiban recently. i cant believe that we can click the moment we met. it's crazy. she seems to know me damn well and i think i might know her pretty thoroughly, too. i really appreciate a friend like her, and i know that losing her as a friend is my biggest loss.

someone was there to hear me talk and talk and talk in SSC playground and forced me to eat, it was hilarious, she was like, HEY IF YOU DONT EAT I DONT EAT. YOU REPORT TO ME THAT YOU'RE EATING THEN I EAT. HAHAHAHAHAHA it's so funny hahahahaah you know who you are,CANDLEMAN. she says candleman because i "can de man", "can do it de man" HAHAHAHAHAH. she also tells me i'm a superduperwoman. i think you're superduperuberwoman then. because for someone who likes to sleep, she actually called me and heard me cry and cry and cry, hahah ya i just cried non fking stop, kept saying omg omg what the hell omg how to live non stop on 1st May midnight, till 3plus am and she was still there, trying to cheer me up, playing guessing games with me until i got distracted. kept thanking her until she's tired of it already. AHHAHAHAHA rmb our year 2727 expiry date hor. hor horhorfun. hahahahahahahha

someone whom i bought winnie the pooh pen for. it's crazy this girl went to my house at 11pm, and stayed all the way with me till 2am, accompanying me through one of my darkest moments. it's so crazy, nobody goes to another's house just to accompany her. i was so touched, and when she saw me yawned she was so happy because it showed signs that i can finally sleep. but i was happy for her instead because she doesnt wish to leave unless i'm sleeping. i'm really,really grateful to her that night (:

a girl whom i wasnt very close with at first, was the one who understood my situation the most. she was the last person i would go to. it was fate. there was a particular day when someone cancelled plans with me due to super reasonable reasons, i had the urge again. that urge to find him. that urge was overwhelming. it's like, even if i die i also must go. somehow fate intervened and this girl who hasnt contacted me for pretty long, contacted me and asked me if i wanna meet up with her. i told her the truth i just said, i'm pretty free actually but i wanna do something to save my r/s. she managed to stop me and it turned out this girl gave me the best, i dont know, advice. it's absurd i know, but she knows. and now she keeps asking me out, simply because she knows i need distractions. i never told her this but i appreciate it, a lot.

these people, were there for me. went to her place to hide out, to chill, to let it out, to get help, to get counselled. i really love her place. it's like a rehab centre. (: she knows i love her. everyone just sat there and chilled and laughed. and treated me to macs. hahahahahahhaah i just love her place and their company.

the people who are filling up my schedule, giving me support,

i actually still rmb one saying,

"when you're truly cherishing something else more, you will find that your centre of the world is shifting"

the people i met yesterday night. they kept snapping me out of my daydreams.

i wanna thank ade too for cooking for me that particular day when i teared like mad and had panic attacks.

someone who helped me out in every single thing, friends issues, uni issues, everything. HAHAHAHAHAH she just told me she loves my excerpt. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH i really thank you can. CAN. i owe you a meal CAN. HAHAHAHA

# -

this person who walked with me ON FOOT from Woodlands to Sembawang. TO SEMBAWANG, from 1 am to 4:30 am. someone who runs with me, from Woodlands to Admiralty, to loosen up and exercise. the hammock laodifang is somewhere i will never forget. the video calls that cheered me up at my worst moments, showing me magic tricks and playing msn games, three weeks ago.

wa this person ah, i really dont know how to say. it's crazy crazy crazy HAHAHAHAHA tantilising (:

i feel so normal already, ahahahahahahh